#its been a rough week
everything happens for a reason.
sometimes, that reason is that you’re a fucking idiot and you make a lot of terrible mistakes.
When your grandma says some homophobic shit then tells you to go to church to be a good Christian and you’re just sitting there like
It was thanksgiving week! Yay! We love thanksgiving! I quit the gym on Wednesday, partially because they are open despite governor’s orders, and that just really irks me. Also, I’m not comfortable going to the gym during COVID anyway, so I just went ahead and quit.
Thursday was thanksgiving of course, I had to work, but it wasn’t as crazy as we were scared it would be. On Friday I picked up a free treadmill that my friend’s mom gave me! I had originally looked it up and thought it was ok for up to 300 pounds, but I googled the other name after I got it and it says only 250, so I need to take it a little easy.
Saturday, after a couple weeks of feeling weird about it, I broke it off with my boyfriend. We were only together 4 months, but it was long distance and we hadn’t seen each other in like 2 months. It was just hard and I was feeling really disconnected and I didn’t think that was fair to him. I’m sad, but mostly guilty. I really didn’t want to hurt him, but I felt like it had to be done. I spent most of the day crying and sleeping.
Today I’m feeling a bit better and really used my treadmill for the first time. I don’t know if I’m super out of shape or what, but it was haaaaard! I only did 15 minutes at a slow pace and my heart was pumping and I was sweating! I’ll work my way back up to where I was.
Oh I also got a new planner / journal that I’ve been tracking my food and daily habits in. I’m trying to track everything I eat, but not the specific calories, since that stresses me out. It’s a clever fox weekly planner if anyone wants to check it out, I love it!
