#its too angst

stuck in a borrowed time.

Sana knows she’ll never be with her… she’s never hers to begin with.

Sana can’t remember when it all started; where watching Nayeon sleep has been her favorite habit.

Her fingers curl, stopping the urge to reach towards Nayeon and trace her every feature, afraid to be more attached than she already is. Nevertheless, she gazes at her, memorizing her pretty features with her eyes, imprinting the perfect image before her.

If tomorrow she won’t be able to be with her anymore, she’d always remember this night with her - and all the other nights they had shared before this - even if Nayeon is holding different memories; memories of another girl who’s not her; who she thought she shared those nights with.

Sana knows she’ll never be with her… she’s never hers to begin with.

She never thought she’d be falling in love with her. Nayeon is… everything she doesn’t want; sad and funny as it is.

Maybe the saying holds a bit of truth after all - you attract what you hate - and now she’s too headlong in love with her and it’s too little too late to change how she feels. Besides, she doesn’t think it’s even possible.

Nayeon has been the most beautiful thing to ever happen to her even if what she has with her is just borrowed time.