#lemme know what you thought of it

I’ve been out of writing for too long and I blame my uni and clinicals for that. Also because there’s been less newer ShinRan content, so bleh.

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Ran has long seen people around her fall in love with someone. She has seen movies with these epic romances and as a child, that sort of unending, infallible, true love for any one was heartwarming. She would be starstruck. And hopeful that there would be someone, that special someone, for her as well.

But as she grew up and saw how fleeting love was, she changed her mind. Love wasn’t enough for people to stay together. She had seen that in her parents’ case. Love wasn’t permanent or unconditional. She had seen that when Sonoko would ‘fall in love’ with a guy the next day even after proclaiming that she had found the ‘one’. 

Her opinion on that emotion was tepid at best. She thought that she would change her mind when she would fall in love with someone. After all, it seemed like being attracted to someone was very easy, if Sonoko and her dad were the examples to go by. But no, she went through middle school without a crush, her high school days were the same. No boys caught her eyes. She thought that college would be different, but no. No one, absolutely, no one caught her attention. No man. No woman.

At this point, Ran was skeptical, Was something wrong with her? Was she missing something? Did she not know how to be attracted to someone? Everybody else seemed to have a easy time with attraction and all its consequences, why not her? 

To be fair, she was very reserved when it came to dating. She didn’t trust easily and for her, she knew that if she dated someone, she would give her all to the person and she didn’t want to choose the wrong person. She valued and treasured herself and refused to let anyone sway her thoughts. She was her number one. No one would take care of herself better than her and so, she didn’t want to settle for anyone who would easily break her. 

She wondered though, if she would ever find a person when she didn’t want to compromise some of her reservedness and go out to clubs or chat with strangers online. But then again, wouldn’t it be a false front she would be putting because she didn’t go out to clubs, she didn’t want to chat with strangers online. 

Sonoko said that if she didn’t put herself out there, nobody would notice her. And maybe she was right, but she didn’t want to do those things, so she refused to. Being single would be better than putting up a front to get someone to stay with her. 

And anyway, she had her career to focus on. After being accepted into the medical university, her life had been full of books and clinical rotations. She preferred to sleep on her days off rather than going out. Staying in was her favorite way to spend the weekend. She would catch up on her novels, music she was interested in, read anything interesting going around the world and just enjoy by herself.

By this point, she was sure that she would be staying single, unless and until either of her parents came up with a match for her. Arranged marriage was her future, and it seemed like that future wasn’t far away.

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Part 1 of something that I may write more of…

Will it be Shinran or will it be something else? It depends on how evil I’m feeling.