#liveblogging life

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i dreamt about the stanley parable ultra deluxe BUT i dreamt it was actually an overwhelming parody of a life simulator that tried to express another person’s state of mind and body in all its imposible moment-by-moment complexity and i just sat there thinking well those people who speculated on stuff like “maybe you’ll be able to reach the warehouse floor this time” will feel real stupid

it’s because i’ve been here for almost ten years but it’s absolutely crazy and insane how small this website feels in terms of how many people i keep recognising in places i wasn’t expecting them

land-of-blitheness-and-catharsis:

watched the gay pirate show it really is just the fan-imagined version of an alternate universe’s buddy comedy. literally every single beat just plays out exactly like people on tumblr would otherwise imagine that it did. you look in the tag and what would normally be meta is just a word-for-word description of the plot because it leaves nothing to the imagination. possibly the first of its kind absolutely fascinating

i still think it’s a really specific type of narrative pleasure that goes beyond Gay Representation, it’s about finding this more intimate, less restrained way to engage with established archetypes…

watched the gay pirate show it really is just the fan-imagined version of an alternate universe’s buddy comedy. literally every single beat just plays out exactly like people on tumblr would otherwise imagine that it did. you look in the tag and what would normally be meta is just a word-for-word description of the plot because it leaves nothing to the imagination. possibly the first of its kind absolutely fascinating

i think kids find it funny how i freak out like YES!!! WHOO!!!! every time anybody gets anything correct but it’s completely genuine, unmatched shots of dopamine, i’d be saying fuck yeah if i could

land-of-blitheness-and-catharsis:

man i was so mad about how my mentor made me go through every single concept in her “cybersecurity” script from encryption to cybermobbing in two hours and now she’s suddenly given me TEN hours to do whatever i want this week. two whole days. with the whole class. thank you but ARGH

it went Pretty Well which means at least five business days of walking on air to me

the sun comes out once and i am so happy every time i still have my wallet and i am so happy to get to interact with anyone and i am so happy to be walking anywhere and i am so happy for every train that arrives and every idea i have and every child that exists, literal space ray insanity

man i was so mad about how my mentor made me go through every single concept in her “cybersecurity” script from encryption to cybermobbing in two hours and now she’s suddenly given me TEN hours to do whatever i want this week. two whole days. with the whole class. thank you but ARGH

ok the dash cleaning sponge made me smile.

all these years of remembering my lovely wife the stanley parable on every 4/27 and now it’s her real rerelease date :)

oh they weren’t lying that covid can covid

land-of-blitheness-and-catharsis:

guess who got covid within two weeks of working at a school! literally the least surprising turn of events. i may or may not have already killed my dad, also

oh he has the sniffles as well. he doesn’t need any more heart damage he already has enough and that should just be respected i think.

guess who got covid within two weeks of working at a school! literally the least surprising turn of events. i may or may not have already killed my dad, also

reading this phd thesis by a teacher who successfully, like, established an authoritarian micro-regime in their school and then sought redemption, thrilling storytelling except jesus christ internal isolation units are real things and they’re not even embarrassed to call them that

applying to the stanley zine with a portfolio like listen i know none of this is normal but i PROMISE i’d be normal

not me not knowing about the 40 minute zoom call limit until 30 minutes into my group interview

oh no sudden feelings of inferiority based on something i convinced myself i don’t even care about! this is happening because i haven’t been running. and i haven’t been running because i put too much strain on my ankles. proof that bad form in your forefoot strike negatively affects mental wellbeing

alright yep any taintage of its legacy aside tftbl really was that good. it was such a good fucking idea to take a franchise that’s one of the self-aware poster children of The Only Method Of Engagement With This World Is Insane Over-The-Top Violence Expressed In Colour-Coded Numbers Above Everybody Else’s Exploding Heads and to drop two corporate shmucks and two con artists in it to have a little point-and-click adventure. just fucking running about while the real player characters try to have a boss fight. just trying to deal with this world that literally wasn’t built for them. INCREDIBLE times for lovers of blood-soaked pathetic men AND blood-soaked pathetic women.

got you so genuinely excited about that universe expanding from new perspectives. i still think the batshit unrestrained aestheticism of the lore is really cool! and wasn’t the storyboard artist on tumblr, way back when? because even through the telltale facial animations you can just feel how fun and impactful the storyboards were moment-by-moment. great shots and great setpieces too. aough

idk what it is but literally ANY time i’m reminded that the earth is just a little ball of magma that could get hit by another giant asteroid at any minute, it gives me existential anxiety like no one’s business. can’t believe we’re all just floating around on this ball of volcanic goo that has like comets getting shot at it at all times of the day. fucked up to think about how we’re just one giant rock away from total extinction at any given moment. 

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