#might do dilucs pov later if i find a good song
OK SOOOOOOOO I just wrote this on a whim because I made this post on my other blog and couldn’t get the idea outta my head. will I write more of this in the future? WHO KNOWS,,, I haven’t been able to write much because I have to write academic stuff (booooo) instead of writing fanfics (YAYYYYY)
anyway here, I hope u enjoy whatever this is!! my april fools prank on u guys is to post this and then forget abt it,, jkjk I might actually complete this if I feel like it (please read the other post for context first!)
I’m in a little bit of an angsty mood tonight because I was listening to this, so I just wanna dump it here to think abt:
imagine childe’s pov when reader chooses diluc over him.
he knows, he knows full well that he deserves it— yet it still hurts like a fresh wound when you finally say it aloud. childe can’t even bring himself to cry, because he thinks he doesn’t deserve the right to grieve over something he let slip out of his grasp so carelessly. part of him wants to be angry, to lash out at diluc, but he knows that diluc is logically the better choice. he can provide safety, stability— everything that childe doesn’t have.
and it hurts even more if you think about how childe accepts his losses with grace if the competition is fair and there’s no trickery involved. if diluc ragnvindr won your heart fair and square, then there’s no reason for him to challenge that truth; it’s something that the harbinger will have to live with for the rest of his life. everything he worked and fought for is finally over.
but a small part of him still wonders; it’s over, yet can’t he move on?
