#mlm thoughts

despite their yearning for me,

icant bring myself to feel sympathetic.

i chose you long ago, before i even met you.

they never even stood a chance.

i want you marked with my blood,

a kind of bond that won’t set us free.

i won’t stop until your skin is all mine,

but tell me when it hurts, tell me if it hurts.

stop acting like you hateme,

you’remakingafool of yourself.

i wish you would just come clean,

im bored of the same old thing.

everything is doomed to burst apart

and nothing goes right anymore.

if i accept my defeat and return to you,

would you turn towards me, oraway?

look me in the fucking face;

tell me what you want out of me.

this stupid cat and mouse game of yours,

i don’t want to play it anymore.

the future doesn’t matter,

I’ll give it up for you.

I’ll end up in the fire,

a stake through my heart,

burning with you.

i hate to think you run off to someone else

whenever i can’t be around you.

but i can’t help but to be paranoid.

ill have to keep you on a shorter leash.

“do you love me? really?”

i do, but i don’t want to burden you.

you don’t have to love me back,

no matter how much i wish you did.

i like when you’re scared,

clinging to me so tightly it hurts to breathe.

it shows how much you depend on me,

and only me.

if this feeling doesnt stop,

i feel as if I’ll cease to exist.

it hurts it hurts it hurts.

when you’re not looking at me,

that face i’ve loved for so long,

i despise it immensely.

years ago, i loved someone i knew.

they were mine, and no one else

could make me more sad.

you’ll look adorable,

arms bound, lips bruised

curled up in my arms.

you’ll belong to me wholly.