#mostly more like only

irl update cause i owe an explanation to things that i owe people//

ahhhh so like, my aunt in nyc messed up my grandparents funding?? ssi thingy + food stamps for my grandparents, and they cut us off and like, granparents are in risk of having no housing, and for a while granma had no food to eat for 4 days because of no foodstamps, and my stupid aunt didnt even pass by to drop off some food so she has something to eat, she asked my mom for money to pay for food when we’re stuck here in california????? and shes the one in nyc???? i dont wanna disclose her reasons for being a poopy aunt but she keeps demanding stuff from mom when we have no power to do things cause we’re in the west coast, it got so bad we had to borrow money from the aid just so granma can eat, its so embarrassing, we paid her back tho!! and another aunt came from the philippines to help out fix papers and junk, shes also heading to maryland to visit my other granma, her mom, because shes having operation for cancer, which we found out at the same time all this junk was happening lmao, not her main reason for being in the states but we appreciate the help, so she managed to fix the food stamps but the SSI thing is bad, said we owed them 8000 dollars and they wont resume services until its fully paid, and mom has to shoulder the whole thing herself cause stupid aunt wont even give like 1 damn dollar cause she spends all her money on [REDACTED], step dad offers to help pay even just 2k but mom declined cause we still have stuff from moving we have to pay for that we will rlly regret not paying for, plus mom has my sisters college tuition to pay for too eughhhhhjjhbjnkn, the folks dont pressure me to help with this situation, which i appreciate but i want to at least pay for a decent dinner to destress a lil for them (also moms trying to plan a way around it idk)

im not rlly asking for much with this, just patience, ive been drawing everyday but its all self indulgent quick stuff to keep me stable, and b4 finding out how much we owed i was buying some self indulgent stuff for myself, not from money from unfinished commissions tho, i apologize for replying late or disappearing in the middle of convos and for my overdue commissions

uhhh ill put this here tho if you wanna help even a lil bit u can send money to my kofi on my page and ill send it to mom, but no pressure on that

i rlly wanna help more by working harder but im so incompetent with working on stuff that isnt quick im upset with myself

hahahuhuhu im so tired my dudes the stress never ended i just wanna…………….sleep through it all