#or apologise

One of the most personally devastating elements of the way that Depp v. Heard has been playing out in fandom spaces is that every so often someone I considered basically a friend will retweet something from a deranged pro-Depp stan account or parrot misinformation and it’s so like…

There’s the basic element of losing a bit of respect for someone for reposting a ridiculous meme about this trial but it also makes me feel completely unheard and invisible like, do my friends even listen to me or pay attention to me? I don’t know how many times I have said this case and people being totally incurious about it and blindly accepting his side makes me feel unsafe, that I have severed friendships over it in the past, it feels so impossible to imagine that people have somehow missed everything I’ve said about it. Maybe it’s just that because it’s not actually that serious to them that they can’t imagine I’m telling the truth when I say it’s serious to me. But it is so exhausting and upsetting to keep getting put in this position of having to be like, should I reach out and try to talk to this person and risk a potentially really upsetting and triggering conversation, do I just ghost without explanation, or do I just try to pretend I didn’t see it while quietly knowing that they’re not really someone I can trust.

It’s just exhausting and the constant reminders of it are inescapable and people just don’t listen and it’s starting to make me feel like I am the crazy one and I’m tired.