#parkinson’s

Hi All,

I just wanted to post something, kind of to get my thoughts out and say something.

My grandfather has been struggling with Parkinson’s for the past while (almost a decade I’d wager). The past year has been a deep struggle as we’ve been told by family closer to him of his deteriorating condition.

Well, he is in pretty critical condition and it doesn’t look like he will rally from this round of badness. I’m worried and have so much regret and guilt. I haven’t seen him in years and am just staring at this with so much thoughts that I’m a bad grandson to him. I truly love him and wish he wasn’t going through this. His mind was a staple of who he was and he was an incredibly smart and loving man. So to know he’s gradually and pretty rapidly lost control of those things breaks my heart.

I usually don’t pray for others, and I don’t want to impose my gods on anyone who can’t consent. And all I want to say is I hope whatever power or gods are watching over him, that they’ll guide him into the next world and that he won’t suffer anymore. I want my grandmother and all of his family to be left behind with great memories of him and knowing that he always loved us. I want him to know that he has always been loved. And if I may see him when I too pass on, I hope I can sit with him and talk. And listen about his life.

I love you, Paga. I can’t say that enough.

-D