‘He wasn’t a guy you could know very well. I think even the other guys in Mayhem didn’t know him very well. He was hard to get close to. I met him two weeks before he died. I’d met him maybe six to eight times, in all. He had lots of weird ideas. I remember Aarseth was talking about him and said he did not have any humor. He did, but it was very obscure. Honestly, I don’t think he was enjoying living in this world, which of course resulted in the suicide.’ - Emperor’s drummer Bård ‘Faust’ Eithun
“I can’t remember much about that night (Abhorrence show and an after party at Mayhem house in Kråkstad). One thing I remember is that after the gig, Anders from Cadaver told us that an afterparty would be held at some house in the woods and we would travel by train to get there! Me and Arkki from Impaled Nazarene thought "fuck this, we are going home”, until we realised we are in Norway! I don’t recall much from that night but there was a Mayhem performance at one point (loud!) Pelle was cool. Talking with Juice (our bass player), about Christianity, I think. He wasn’t acting crazy or anything except throwing Tomi on the floor for a good reason! I slept on the mattress on the floor and Tomi was sleeping in Pelle’s bed. I woke up when Tomi crash landed beside me, with Pelle cursing and yelling at him! This was the time before any notorious fame for Mayhem, they were ordinary guys just like us, Anders or Darkthrone. But I am glad I got to witness it" - Kalle Mattsson (source: mayhem.chronicles)
