This is what’s been hitting me really hard lately, and someone put it into words.
[ID: A darkmode screenshot of a tweet by Laura Elliot. It reads: the fun thing you learn when you have a chronic illness is there’s really no such thing as mind over matter in the way healthy people think it. you can to an extent distract yourself from some symptoms, but once you get sick you realise you can’t actually will your body to work. /End ID]
Trying to convince my therapist of this. No “If you believe you can’t heal then you can’t.” I’m pretty sure it’s the <5% recovery rate and not my lack of grinning. I refuse to live my life waiting for a highly improbable cure and No, my Attitude will not change this. I’m going to live as if this is my new life and I have new goals and things I intend to do. Just… very slowly. Refusing to believe in a magical future Cure for myself is not negative- it’s accepting reality, and deciding to have goals and fun anyway.
