#salmatxt

i just got great news about smth i thought was probably never gonna happen but it’s going to! & i’m overwhelmed with joy! & i hope everyone is doing great & is at peace. & i love y’all

i’m feeling a bit grateful, but also a bit heavy & i just wanted to share a few ✨thoughts✨

i’ve been going through a pretty rough time lately. and these are my first thoughts every single morning (without fail, no joke):

“Oh crap. I’m still here. I’m still me. This is still my life.”

every morning i wish someone would shake me into seeing that its all been one giant nightmare, and that everything is okay now.

but no one comes, and i eventually get out of bed and carry on with my day.

but something very strange happens every once in a while. as i lay in bed to write my gratitude, i am overcome by a wave of love—a hug, almost. I stream my day through the projector of my memory and i realize: this day has come and gone, and has gifted me so many tiny magics to be grateful for! as though, for that brief moment before i shut my eyes, i can recall more lightness in my day than weight. and my broken heart follows the light for a breath of fresh air.

its a good bad day. because every single day has been loaded. every single day has been heavy. but i open my eyes to faint glimmers of light that i simply cannot deny. and on days when that light covers my thick dark sky, no matter how briefly, i am okay.

i went to maroon 5’s live at the pyramids concert tonight y’all & as always, the pyramids were breathtaking :’)

some more ✨thoughts✨ from yours truly

i’ve always been the type to unnecessarily feel every single word that is spoken. every single glance or facial expression, even. so of course, i’ve always felt like a walking giant bucket of other people’s unintended baggage. perhaps that’s not always a bad thing, but it is a lot.

i’ve been through more than i can comprehend in the past 9 months, which has made me become more sensitive to the world. & i’ve been beating myself up over the fact ever since.

needless to say, it caught up to me, and now i’m dragging my feet.

and so, i’ve realised its okay to breathe, and recognize doing so. its okay to sit in the burden, feel it, then let it go. but i must heal before i can move onward.

& so a promise i’m making to myself to continue this with a fun ting mind is to, “treat my emotions as visitors who are just passing through.” :)

<3

moon knight is perfect in every way possible. & the showcasing of many egyptian talents is just SUPERB