#samridhi speaks

I am fucking burnt out nahi hoga maths ab

Maths paper easy hoga. Maths paper acha hoga. Meko 28 milenge. Mein maths pass krungi

Jai mata di

I am going to cry what is maths. I hope I get 28/40 zyada icha nahi hai apna bas 28

So one’s I am done with maths on 7th, I will complete my fic first (krishna one), then do some offline writing and then rrr fics

Not me watching a swalla jathi (indian raga) tutorial instead of going back to maths

Wtf is maths meko nahi padhna aur

Abhijit Chavda is a gem. Someone told him in a show that thankfully he did not study history at any university or we wouldn’t have got such a knowledgeable man. I checked out his YouTube and found some book recs regarding Indian history and a self learning sanskrit book. I just need to get overy exams now and start reading them

I am already tired of maths. What do you mean I have to study for more 4 days

Does somebody know any books which write in great detail about the Cholas? Since school books mention barely a paragraph or just a page about them and I am tired of reading how great the mughals were, I want to know more about the Cholas.

Also are there more books talking about Indian kings before the Islamic invasions? I want to know about the culture, their policies, their lifestyle.

And it’s such a shame that all my life I read about Akbar and Aurangzeb but never about odia kings and queens. There were queens who controlled the state of odisha back then single handedly. They don’t have a single mention anywhere.

Zindagi ke bas aur 5 din maths

Only one more exam

My dad got transferred to Durgapur in West Bengal. I lived in Kolkata before shifting here in Odisha and I tell you I loved Kolkata and I was heartbroken when I had to move here unexpectedly.

And now my father will be near to Kolkata but I won’t be able to go there because I am taking a drop year for neet so I will be staying here in sambalpur for a few months I guess till dusshera and then go to Nalco for the remaining time till neet is over. I loved Kolkata so much that I want a med college there itself (major reason is to dance because my dance teacher is there and she wants me there the most). I truly hope that maybe finally fate destiny whatever it is it is aligning and maybe just like how I thought I will get a seat there and start dancing freely there.

I have like ig ten months to prepare for neet. My mum is more worried than me lol but it is understandable afte the things I pulled up in grade 11,she will be worried.

And in nalco, I am going to live in a one room house with nothing there except a rack for books, aquaguard and clothes. My school in Kolkata was this posh school where the rich kids studied and I see them posting things about their trips and going for parties and eating out. Some of my batch mates will get colleges this year and I will see more of them and I will be there in that one room house wishing if it were me too.

I guess moving around from birth makes you adjust to situations like these. None of my friends can ever dream of living in a condition which my brother and I will get to live in the next couple of months. Though I am glad that I am better off than those people who don’t have access to even these amenities but have large dreams.

So, these ten months, I have to work hard and keep dancing. Thankfully, my mother thought of my dancing space too over there because I want to take dance seriously along with whatever job I get.

I am a little worried about the academic part. But I guess I will get through. I have seen the worst in these two years and there is yet hope within me that things will get better.

In these years, I have now seen cities and suburbs and even had some occasional trips to villages. I have toured in almost all the four directions of India starting of with my birth in South india.

I am quite glad to have this experience because I get to mingle with so many people. Nalco you can is a mini kota factory but there unlike the coaching centres of delhi bombay thery stay there late at night give a lot of personal attention and since I am the cousin of their top student, they will look out for me and my brother now.

Life is literally uncertain. But there is light at the end of the tunnel.

Will be less active here till 7th june as I have maths .