A/N: Written for @supersoldierslover 4k celebration! Congrats, love <3 My prompt was ‘Do I wanna Know’ by Arctic Monkeys. The title’s from ‘La Douleur Exquise’, which is the heart-wrenching pain of wanting someone you can’t have.
Falling in love is nice, isn’t it?
The question is so supremely insane it keeps Steve awake at 3 in the morning, his arm folded behind his head as he stares at the ceiling of his bedroom. Bucky shifts beside him and hugs the pillow a little tighter before burying his face in it.
“Stop thinkin ‘bout her,” he mutters, his words muffled by the pillow. “’M tryin ta sleep.”
“Can’t help it,” Steve replies, then turns his head toward his best friend. “You have a bed in your room, y’know?”
Oh, wow…that hurt… You warned us, so I was prepared, but is one every really prepared to have their still-beating heart ripped from their chest?? I relate to this story more than I should, so that’s probably why it hurts so much. It’s hard to be yourself when everyone around you has an idea of who you should be…and it’s not who you really are. ♀️ Maybe they could love the real you, but they’ve spent so much time building you in their mind as this perfect specimen of virtue that the reality seems so much harsher than it truly is… My heart breaks for both of them, but perhaps it’s for the best… Thanks for sharing, sweetie!
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