#suffocation tw
https://archiveofourown.org/works/26748730/chapters/66602227
Prompt: I Think I Need a Doctor, Reluctant Bedrest; Alt Prompt 5 - Stoic Whumpees; Alt Prompt 15 - Carry/Support
Fandom/OC: Original Work
TW: stitches, blood, guns, gunshot
Note: I have not written any Rotti whump I’ve noticed. I did this a few months back. This is based on the solo RPG Frankenstein using the Wretched and Alone engine. You play a version of Victor Frankenstein chasing after the monster he created.
Game Link: https://gassenknecht-games.itch.io/frankenstein-arctic-chase
I have been tracking him for months. I’ve followed him all the way to this frozen tundra. I have finally found him. This monster I have created must be destroyed. My arrogance at playing God…I have lost everything. I will destroy this creature if it’s the last thing I do. I swear it on all those taken from me by this monster.
I managed to make it deeper into the island. I found supplies. I found my daughter’s diary in my bag. I shook as her childish scrawl greeted me. Luigi doesn’t even look at me anymore. Did I do anything wrong? Mommy says to leave him be. He has never been nice to me. Never cared for me. But…he looks sad all the time. I want to ask him what’s wrong but I know he’ll ignore me like he always does. Did I do something wrong? I never wanted this for them. I didn’t expect Luigi to react the way he did. I never knew what Irene said to him until it was too late. I would have told him not to listen. I…I just wanted him to have a normal life.
“Pops please, I don’t want to do this. We don’t know if it’ll work. Please pops. Don’t do this.” I keep having the same nightmare. The same desperate begging. Why hadn’t I listened to him? Why hadn’t I listened to anyone? Dr Smith refused to play along. He tendered his resignation on the spot. Why didn’t I listen to him? Maybe…things would have been different. There are times where I begin wondering if this monster is even real. Maybe I had lost my mind and began imagining things. No one else alive has seen this thing. Could I have just gone mad?
I was attacked by a bear. A passing by lumbar jack saved me and showed me a way deeper into the forest. He asked what I was doing here and I could only tell him half truths. We parted ways and deeper I went into the frozen Tundra. I…I still can hear the monsters voice in my ear. Why did it have to be his voice? I could have given him any voice. Why did I give him hisvoice? How did I fuck things up so badly?
I awoke hearing the sounds of an old Italian lullaby. My wife, my first wife used to sing that while pregnant with Luigi. She…she never got to hold her child. Luigi never heard his mother’s voice. It’s been years… Why am I thinking about her now? Because I failed her. I failed her and I failed our son. I never gave the creature a name. Stubbornly I held to the belief that I succeeded. So I never gave it a name. Lorenzo. It tried to call itself. A common Italian name. Foolish. I keep wondering what I would say if I saw it. I would ask it why. Why did he kill my children? Why did it take everything from me? Why…why didn’t I succeed?
I was foolish. I ate berries from a bush that I thought were safe. I began hallucinating. It took me to that night. The night I found out exactly how much of a monster I created.
“Carmela. Carmela I’m home.” Silence greeted him. “Carmela?” He entered the room and found the monster sitting on the bed.
“I…She wouldn’t stop screaming. I thought…I thought she would bring the guards. I just wanted to keep her quiet.”
Rotti’s eyes widened. In the monster’s arms was his daughter’s limp body. “What…what have you done!?”
“She wouldn’t stop screaming. Why wouldn’t she stop screaming?” He held the child up to him. “Fix her. Father, you can fix her. Fix her.”
With shaking hands he took his daughter from it. She was cold and stiff. Her face was ashen and her lips were a horrid shade of blue.
“Father please, fix her.”
“You killed her.”
“I didn’t mean to hurt her.”
“You fucking bastard. You killed her.”
“Father please.”
“I will fucking kill you.” Rotti aimed his gun at him. The monster pushed him down and ran out of the room. Rotti held Carmela to him and sobbed.
I had finally found where the monster was hiding. The villagers spoke of a monstrous creature hiding in the caves in the mountains. There. Now I knew exactly where I was headed. I will find this creature and destroy it once and for all.
I found the entrance of the cave. A fire was burning in front of it. On the side was a roasted hare, still warm. A chill filled me. Was the monster making sure I had enough food? I closed his eyes ready to kick the hare aside. My stomach growled in protest. No reason to waste good food… I sat down to eat the hare when I felt eyes on me. I looked up to see the monster watching from the edge of the cliff. It smiled, took a step back and jumped. “Luigi!” The cry tore from my throat before I could stop it. I ran to the edge of the cliff. The strong currents carried the monster downstream. There was no way it would survive that. Was…was coming here a waste of time?
I wondered what would be engraved on my tombstone. Rotti Largo. Fool. Failure. Child killer. Survived his children. ‘Sorely missed’ would not be there. There was no left to miss me. I’d lost three wives, three children. I deserved death.
I headed down the mountain following the river. I had to see for myself if the monster was dead. I found him from a distance panting heavily by the river bank. His eyes widened when it saw me. It turned and ran. I wondered if it was trying to convince me it was dead so I would leave him be. He killed my daughter. I know he claims it was an accident. Maybe that I could forgive. But…
Rotti froze when he saw the monster standing in the living room. “You!”
“I just wanted you to love me. Why didn’t you love me?” The monsters back was facing him.
Rotti reached for his gun. “Because you are a failure of an experiment and a monster. That is all.”
“I…I have his face. Is that not enough?”
“You have the face of a monster.”
“You will never love me will you?” It laughed a hollow laugh. “Well, no one will love you either.” It turned around and dropped something onto the ground.
“Pavi!” He picked his son up and turned him. Pavi’s eyes were open, staring blankly into his. His neck was twisted to an unnatural angle. “NO!” Rotti screamed, hugging his son to him.
“He didn’t suffer.”
Rotti let out a howl of rage and pain. He pointed the gun at the monster and shot. Bang! Red splattered over the monster’s shoulder. It stared wide eyed at him and ran.
I once again tried to find the monster. The cold was biting. I felt it seep into my bones. If I do not find this creature soon, this cold will soon take me. I had to find him. I had to end this.
A little girl passed me a note from the monster. Stop following me. Turn back. You will die. I scoffed and threw the note to the ground. The wind blew it and I realized there was writing on the back too. Why won’t he stop screaming? What…what was the monster talking about?
Rotti finally found the monster hiding in a riverside cave.
“You’ve found me.” The monster looked defeated.
“Yes.”
“Are you here to kill me?”
“Yes.”
“I just wanted you to love me. Why was that so hard?”
“You’re not my son.”
“But you made me!”
“Imade a mistake.”
“If I had pretended to be him from the start. Could you have loved me?”
Rotti was silent.
“Go on then. Kill me.”
“You murdered my children.”
“I…I’m sorry. Carmela was an accident. And Paviche…I…I just became so angry. I just wanted to punish you. I didn’t…”
“Then you should have come for me. Not my children.”
“I just wanted them to love me. I was their brother. They were supposed to love me too.”
“You are a monster.”
“I know.”
“What did you mean when you said he won’t stop screaming?”
The monster was silent.
“What did you mean?”
“I hear him sometimes. It was nothing more than an occasional whisper. But when I killed Paviche…He won’t stop screaming.”
Rotti froze. “It worked…”
The monster shook his head. “No! This body is mine. I’m alive. I’m real.”
“If I’d known Luigi was in there all along…”
“You’d what!? Treat me better? Treat me human? Treat me like your son!?” Tears flowed down the monster’s face. “All I wanted was for you to love me. But you failed even that.”
“Luigi? Can you hear me?”
“He’s powerless. He couldn’t even stop me from killing his brother.”
“You bastard.”
“Nothing I do is going to be enough for you. So go on, kill me. Kill me and destroy all traces of your only child left. That would be the sweetest revenge of all.”
“Stop this.”
“Stop what? You followed me here. I was resigned to this isolation but you wanted your revenge. So here I am.”
Rotti’s hand shook. “I just wanted to save my son. All I wanted was to save my son.” Rotti collapsed to the ground sobbing.
“He didn’t want any of that. He begged you not to do it. He begged you to let him stay.”
“And I didn’t listen.” Rotti sobbed. “because I was arrogant enough to believe it would work. I murdered my son.”
“Come on then. Let’s end this once and for all.”
Rotti didn’t move, he couldn’t. He was ready to kill the bastard. But if there was a chance his son was still in there.
“Go on then. Kill me! Just make him stop screaming. Please.”
Rotti closed his eyes. He aimed the gun at the monster’s head and pulled the trigger. BANG!
***
(Bonus scene ;))
Carmela screamed at the sight of the monster.
“Please. Please stop screaming.”
Carmela screamed more. The thing was disgusting. It didn’t look human.
“The guards will come running. Please.”
She backed away. “Daddy!!! Pavi!!!”
“I’m your brother. Please. Just listen to me.”
She couldn’t hear what it was saying. She was terrified. The thing ran towards her and grabbed her. She screamed even louder. “Let me go!!!”
“Please keep it down.”
“Let me go!!! HELP!!!! DADDY!!!!”
The monster clamped a hand over her mouth. “Please stop shouting.”
She fought against it. She bit its hand. “DADDY!!!!!!!!!”
It grabbed her waist and clamped a hand over her face once more. “Please. I just want to talk.”
She struggled some more. She couldn’t scream.
“Just calm down. I just wanted to meet you.”
She couldn’t breathe. She struggled harder. Daddy!!!
It held her more tightly. “Please calm down.”
She fought harder. She tried to bite his hand again but his hand was too tight. His hand was too tight. She couldn’t breathe.
“Father made me. So I’m your brother you see.”
She scratched desperately at his hands trying to make him let go.
“If you promise to stop screaming, I’ll let you go. Ok?”
She tried to scream but her cry was muffled by his hands. Tears pricked her eyes as her chest burned.
“Please just listen to me. Father won’t listen. I know you will.”
She was beginning to see stars. She arched her back desperate to breathe but his grip was too tight. Daddy! Help me!!!
“My name is…my name is Lorenzo. Do you like that name?”
She blindly slapped the monsters hand. She was losing coordination. Pavi. Help!!!
“Shit theres someone outside. Shhhh.”
Using her last bit of strength Carmela tried to scream as loud as she could.
The monsters hand clamped harder to muffle her cries.
Her hands fell to her side. She gapped desperately for oxygen that would not come. Darkness crept at the edges of her vision. Her legs twitched. Her vision turned black.
