geto suguru came and went before he found you, so why does it feel like he’s not taking you with him this time.
warnings : f. sorcerer reader, slight angst, sex as a means of comfort, slightmanga spoilers,aged up!jujutsu tech sorcerer geto, exhibitionism (sex in a classroom), breeding, fingering, very minor marking.
word count : 2.8k
note : i’ve never written for this man before and then suddenly wrote this, sorry in advance :,)
he’d seemed out of it the last few days—he’d started taking his own missions lately, and the time you’d been spending with suguru was beginning to wear thin. you still seen him but the brief encounters left you feeling unfulfilled, he seemed more closed off than he usually was—like something was on his mind, like something had rooted itself within the thoughts that made you fall in love with geto suguru in the first place and began to take shape, corrupting him along with it.
something had changed that day, after their mission—even satoru wasn’t the same because the last time your gaze locked with his you remember thinking that diamonds had never looked so transparent, not that you ever found out why, but this was the one instance where you didn’t mind that, because as much as truths felt like beginnings, by their own right, something that crept inside of you told you that this one may signify an eventual end instead.
you still loved him, ofcourse—it wasn’t instant but rather gradual when you first realised and it was unlike the expectations and fantasies that you’d first imagined, and if you really thought about it hard enough you’d be able to recall the days spent together. all the in betweens from the first, sleepy good morning’s in class to the shared lunches and inside jokes with him and satoru as they fought over your leftovers.
geto suguru always had you, your love, your vulnerability, your truth and your certainty. he was sweet, all playful jokes and an easiness that he carried along with him despite him being a little fragile—he kept one of his sweaters in the corner of his bedroom, on top of his cabinet because it smelled like your perfume, and he always waited until you came to his room every morning to do his hair because he knows you’d scoff and insist on tying it up for him instead.
and you know you love him, because the thought wasn’t something that took you by surprise, but it’s also the reason why you feel something ache in your chest when you realise that this might just be his trickling goodbye.
⤷ featuring : geto suguru (mentions of gojo satoru, ieiri shoko and nanami kento)
⤷ warnings : major jujutsu kaisen manga spoilers and a bit of angst
⤷ form : imagine
⤷ published : 19 march
⤷ pronouns : not mentioned
⤷ word count : 0.7k
⤷ request : Hehyehye, can i request an imagine with a female reader; where she’s Geto’s girlfriend/classmate and they’re spending their last moments together before he ends up leaving (after Geto is charged with his crimes)
⤷ barista’s notes : let me admit, i’ve been hating the layouts of my writing but i have no idea how to like ‘solve it’ anyways, watch me scroll on pinterest for hours to see how i can fix this feeling ʕ ㅇ ᴥ ㅇʔ also i don’t think i’m really good with angst writing but that’s just my opinion….
It seemed to be a bit too quiet.
Too quiet for Suguru’s liking, but what can he do when it was 2 am in the morning.
Softly twirling the ends of your hair, Suguru couldn’t help but begin to admire the shine of the strands before his eyes slowly shift from the strand of your hair to your eyelashes before moving to the apple of your cheeks that were still flushed with a rose hue, ending his journey to your lips that were a little chapped, making him remember how you would alway apply a layer of your favourite chapstick since you hated the feeling of your lips being dry, yet he didn’t mind at all. For some strange reason, Suguru didn’t mind your chapped lips since he knew he was the one to moisturise them the second his lips met yours, but secretly he also did enjoy the taste of the artificial sweetness that came along with the product.
However, right now, Suguru’s body felt the heaviest it has ever been causing him to force himself to balance on his arm since he didn’t want to crush you with his body, worried that he could hurt you like he did with his parents just a few hours ago. Even though he knew that you wouldn’t mind his body on top of yours like you have experienced throughout the time of your intimate relationship, Suguru couldn’t help but believe that this weight he was experiencing will crush you the second he let loose.
“You know you’re the most beautiful person I’ve ever met right?” Suguru whispered as he let your hair slip from his grasp. “You are so beautiful that I want to take you with me,” he continued before wrapping his arms around your bare body, making you unconsciously sign at the warmth that was comforting you right now as you snuggled against his naked chest, feeling the way your legs tangled with each other, as if you were savouring this moment.
“But I can’t do that, because who is going to take care of Satoru and Shoko if I’m gone,” Suguru mentioned as he began to recall all the times where you put your classmates in place even though you were the youngest out of all of them. “How are you going to take care of Nanami if I take you with me?” Suguru questioned again, yet this time it seemed as if he was asking himself this.
Gently placing a light kiss on your temple before resting his forehead, Suguru felt a single tear drop from his eye to your cheek.
Suguru wasn’t scared about the path he had chosen to walk on, nor he was scared about the consequences of his actions. Suguru was scared of leaving you alone.
He wasn’t stupid. Suguru knows you can defend yourself and how to fight - you were a sorcerer after all like him - but there was still a part of him where he was afraid that you were going to fall into the hands of those ‘monkeys’ that he once vowed to protect. He didn’t want to leave you all alone in this cruel world to survive for yourself. He wanted to convince you to follow him, so he could protect you and continue this love that connected you both heart to heart and soul to soul.
Suguru wanted to make his vision of this relationship come true, he wanted to live with you, marry you, have children with you.
Even the simple things he wanted.
He wanted to stay by your side. He wanted to hold you whenever he wanted. He wanted to kiss you, love you, even breathe the same air as you.
Suguru wanted nothing more but to have you.
He wanted nothing but to have a normal life with you like you had mentioned to him when you both snuck out of your dorms one night to have a weird timing picnic - he still recalls the scolding you both received from your teacher Yaga when he found you both sleeping outside since you were both late for class.
But he knew that he couldn’t and this was the one time he couldn’t let his selfishness control his actions.
Stroking the apple of your cheek, Suguru couldn’t help but smile with glassy eyes once he got a full view of you resting in his arms while your arms tight around him, keeping him from moving away even when he needed to leave you so soon.
“I’m so sorry, please forgive me,” Suguru pleaded before tightening his hold, nervous of the days where he was never going to be by your side again.
