Stayed home from school today because I’ve felt very sickly and my head is killing me at the moment, I’m excited for the baby shower on Sunday but I hope I’m not going to be as drowsy as I am now
It hasn’t been until the end of my pregnancy that I’ve become almost completely confident with my body. I’ve learned to love my stretch marks, thanks to Morgan who loves them more than I do. And my scarred belly, it still houses my beautiful baby and I know he’ll love me no matter what as well(: 9 or 10 more days until I meet this little king. And I can’t be more excited(:
Before I was pregnant, I never took photos showing my stomach only when I got my belly piercing done and just that was my belly button. I was always self conscious of my body so the first photo was all I could find of what my body looked like before I was pregnant that showed how slim I was. Once I look at these photos, I see how much I’ve grown! First photo I was self harming, hurting the people around me and pushing people away making my self more depressed. Than to 16 weeks I stopped the self harming but still had some sort of wall up that made me just not want people and hide… 28 weeks I’ve broken out of that wall, no self harming and I only feel fat because of my pregnancy not because I ever was what I thought! And now 37 weeks I’m a much happier and fun person to be around *so I’ve gotten told* me and my mum are much closer and never fight anymore like we use too! I’m much closer to my family and know what is going on in my surroundings instead of being bunched in my room and not allow anybody to come in or talk to me because I go into bad situations and started harming myself because I was pushing away others… The only thing now I’ve got to stop is the biting of my lips! My midwife says that’s my anxiety and depression because I haven’t self harmed I’ve turned to biting my lips when I don’t even notice I’m doing it.. Hopefully that will be dealt with soon and I won’t have to bite my lips just so I can keep going on with my day without bad thoughts ☺️⭐️
Wish me luck for school, I’m hoping the bitches don’t continue on today cause I’m really sick of being treated wrong and accused for things that Arnt true about myself.