#thank you for all your support
hi hi people that are following me!
wow, this has been a wild, wild journey. It’s been almost two years of me owning this account and posting my fanfictions on here. That fact is completely mind boggling to me. I can not express the immense gratitude I feel for everyone who supported me by following or liking or reblogging my posts.
In the past couple of years, my mental health was definitely going down a steep, rocky hill and writing and coming to tumblr was always my safe haven. I would spend my nights, and days, writing, to the best of my ability, out my emotions. I typed full fanfictions on my phone in the dark of night, when I was feeling down. I remember, on my family road trips, I would be sitting in the back seat, beside my sister, with the Google Docs app open, typing fanfictions to post on WattPad. My headphones always be plugged in as I worked on a new piece, music fitting my mood blasting in my ears. Honestly, I have so many precious moments of being a fanfiction writer stuck in my head that it makes me not want to do this.
Due to recent accumulation of work and stress, I haven’t been writing fanfiction. Not only that but I’ve been becoming increasingly insecure about my writing and not confident in my grammar and creativeness. With these burdens, I couldn’t help myself from writing anymore. As I read other peoples’ work, I noticed how unique, how special, their styles were. I’ve also been quite sad about my lack of mutuals, which the blame’s all on me. Since very young, I was socially discriminated for a immune system disorder that affected my appearance. This led to many confidence issues and my social abilities to be lacking.
Moreover, ever since I got rid of Instagram, I fell out of interest in Tom. I still support him, don’t get me wrong, but I just haven’t been as actively interested in his career. The past 5 years of being a dedicated fan have been a whirlwind of adventure and joy and some sadness. Becoming his fan opened my eyes to many new experiences that I will forever appreciate. I also wanted to say, TomDaya finally happened! I’m so glad those years I shipped them paid off, but I also did cut back on my shipping for reasons of respect, not that I have to cut back anymore!!!
Anyways, I wanted to say thank you to everyone who has been here for years or even just a couple hours for filling that empty hole in me and rejuvenating me into a happier being. I also wanted to thank @kelieah for trying to include me by adding me to a group chat, that I could never bring myself to join, and responding to me whenever I spoke with you.
It’s been a great almost two years, but I think it’s best for me to go on an indefinitesemi-hiatus. If I were to ever return, that’d be for a momentary spur of inspiration or for Spider-Man: No Way Home. Yet again, thank you for your support.
Signing off for now, M.
p.s.: If you ever want to talk, slip into my inbox or chat on tumblr! Otherwise, I wish you all happy lives!
