summary:you’re asking yourself why he keeps coming back, he’s asking himself why you keep letting him in. it’s a treacherous slope but neither of you can turn back now.
pairing: outlaw!bucky barnes x female reader.
warnings: SMUT (18+, minors dni!), swearing, fluff, angst, mention of alcohol, blood, injury, guns, death, and non-con (it’s alluded to in regards to an unnamed character).
length:16.5k
a/n: written for my 3k celebration, the prompt is bolded. i know nothing of the old west but this is fiction so. title inspired by this song and one part of this fic is inspired by a scene in butch cassidy & the sundance kid (if u can tell which part ur cool). also my second time writing smut ✌.
You never could quite handle the sight of blood, nor could you ever hide your instinctual response to it. Your father used to terrorise you with the cuts he’d sometimes earn from a hard day’s work, always finding your reactions humorous.
Each time he would smile and say “You’ll get used to it one day kid.”
That day didn’t come while he was alive and it hadn’t come now.
Opening your front door to the man you’d spied knocking on it through your kitchen window, you almost shut it again.
The stranger towers above you, taking up the whole doorway, but your focus is drawn down to where his hands, covered in dirt and blood, press above his left hip.
this… this is it. my favourite comment reblog of all time.
WOW i’m seriously blown away, i think i’ve been smiling at this for a while now, i’ve never had someone take the time to write so much!! (tho i suppose it was a 16k fic )
it was definitely new territory for me to do an outlaw au (i always seem to do au’s i know little about sksk), i’m so glad you thought it blended and built steadily, i struggled a lot trying to make it not feel rushed while also making sure it didn’t seem too slow .
!!! i’m so happy you loved bucky’s characterization, because again it’s so hard to know if i’m portraying him correctly and that he’s coming across the way i want him to! yes, him bringing her the flowers is one of my favourite parts! (i tried to drop a little hint there about how lavender makes bucky think of her cos he made sure to buy her a bouquet with lavender in it )
ok… i’m not going to lie, when the idea came to me to do an outlaw au with this prompt i wanted to do angst, so it was gonna end with bucky dying. BUT i started writing and the length/characters/plot ran away from me and i just COULDN’T DO IT. i couldn’t not have the angst of the original hanging scene tho so i wanted to make y'all sweat a little, maybe even tear up a bit all for that build up of seeing Steve wink. sorry not sorry hehe.
ipromise bucky got out safely (i may or may not have written some extra scenes that i decided to cut for the cliffhanger effect that take place after …)
