#the sewer man
I wish to clear myself off and share my experience in drawing, my main inspirations, and what goes through my head.
Rough sketches are like a taboo to my subconscious.
There artists who make rough sketches and turn out amazing!
If I try that myself, I’m instantly gonna go full on perfectionist.
Let’s take a more intrigued character, like Cervitaur Raven. I Seriously Cannot draw her in less than maybe…20mins? It’s gonna take me even longer just to draw her deer half! For crying out loud I always end up distracting myself while drawing and makes me take even way longer!
Now I probably do that cause…I don’t draw every day and even a small perfected drawing burns me out. (Or I have some sort of adhd and I have no fucking idea♀️)
My body hates Simplism! It Must make it look perfect and detailed as possible! Even when I’m roughly sketching the lighter outlines! Basically, I go full on.
Honestly, I do know I don’t have to draw 24/7 to consider myself an artist, and i always take a week or less days until i come up with a new drawing.
Part of me is scared to try new things. Let’s take for example Horrorartist23’s Roger Willington, Victor Bellman, and the Sewer man. (Which by the way have amazing and creppy art✨☠️). Her characters, are what I consider, my challenges to interpret them in my style.
First time I drew Roger, I was absolutely nerve wrecked. He just looked so perfect despite the fact he was still new, my head wanted him to look absolutely as perfect as possible. During a reblog chain, I tried his side view, and to my amazement, I loved the outcome. Looking at him again he might have needed some more improvement but I just adored the first end result.
Victor Bellman. My God, his details scared me (not litteraly). He is obviously more different in structure than Roger, and his facial features looked very intriguing. Again, perfectionism hits, and I want to atleast replicate as much of him in my own was as possible. I was scared to try, it took me quite some time until I drew him for the first time, again, in side view (i find side views very simple for my first time) and absolutely adored the result. He…looked perfect honestly, and then I drew him again but full body, despite crouched, and loved it even more. Still believe he might needed more improvement, but I was happy and satisfied (until i drew him again in front views and loved it even more. I feel like I am improving in some way).
Last but not least, The Sewer Man. When I say I was mind blown, I surely was. I loved the story accompanied with him, and seeing his goulish appearance sent chills up my spine and…got me hooked xD ! It was like reading a creepy story, it made me want to know more. He is horrifying but yet So fascinating. He practically lives rent free in my head! So, me wanting to draw this absolute unit, I was… mentally frozen. Same thing, Perfectionism. I wanted him to look ✨Perfect ✨ (but still creepy). So I took positions, prepared my items, and took my Sweet ass time completing him. I lost the count of time but he surely took me more than 5hrs (i suppose. But i posted him late cause power went out). The result…was the cherry on the damn cake. Seeing half his frame hunched over my grown up OC, that long clawed hand looking ready to strike, the details of the arms, the ribs, and Mostly the facial features….I fell in love with that master piece, and now consider it my bestest work.
Now obviously, those three characters belong to Horrorartist23, and I am not claiming them as mine, but I love using her work as inspiration and to improve myself. I still yet have to come out of my comfort zone, but I gotta start from somewhere.
Every artist has a struggle. Mine is being perfect, become easily burnt out, distressed from imperfections, and probably procrastinate half drawing.
Despite the ups and downs I get from my self-esteem, I will somehow always come back up (even after some strong encouragements), and will do my best to improve even more. I may take it slow…but as they say “slow and steady wins the race”. It might take me more years to improve, but I’m surely never abandoning my passion for art.
Ooh thats interesting to know some of youre thought behind drawing. I can relate alot to it.
It was also interesting to know some of your thought when you draw some of my characters. They always look great when you draw them
Plus I see improvement in youre art already. Like you said ,,slow and steady wins the race" take youre time when improving even more. I know you will!❤️
Lots of love from me❤️❤️
