#this is me for you

#ThisIsMeForYou now has its own account on Instagram! Each Saturday I’ll post a poem and its explanation on the new profile: @thisispartofmeforyou

From my #ThisIsMeForYou Piece 3. Tune in Live on Instagram every Saturday at 5:30pm EST (unless otherwise posted).

THE FUTURE (12/16/17 8:53pm)

Never hindered by the skies above,
or the ceilings that cover

our heads when we sleep and dream of the times we live. And will live. Are meant to live.

Never hindered by the immense pressure we put on ourselves to be great.
Be the next Big Thing. Do the next Big Thing. Have the next Big Thing.
Never hindered by the times of our past that chase us like shadows of children on a playground. Climbing, swinging, falling more, standing, crawling, falling more. Dancing, crying, falling more. Again and again. Figuring out what works for them. Slowly getting to where they want to be, their way.
The Future.
Never hindered by the skies above.
Nor the ceilings over our heads.
Nor the past of ourselves that we once were.
Because we are, now. We are who were are, now.
And the future?
Well, we’ll just have to find out.

This is Me for You
(silent edition—Piece 2)
_______________
waiting.
at the door.
that you closed.
knocking
knocking
knocking
let me in.
talking
talking
talking through the door.
i want in.
waiting
waiting
waiting
the sun through the window now blinding my eyes.
trying not to
trying not to
trying not to
cry.
so i do.
i can’t tell if you hear me over my screaming whimpers.
i want in, let me in!
you won’t let me.
you Can’t let me.

i have to walk away now.
my legs are giving out.
and i have to leave before they give up.
cause i’ve given up
on you.

____________________

The poem is titled
Self-Love

It’s about the process of accepting being unwanted. And the necessity of doing so.

You can try, you can try, you can try, but if someone closed the door on you, you’re wasting your energy.

You’re giving yourself away to someone who doesn’t want a gift.

And that is exactly what you are:

A gift.

So realize that the person is not going to open the door, and walk away before your legs give out.

Because you’ve already had people give out on you. You don’t need to do that to you.

The moment you walk away

from the person who closed the door on you

Is the moment you know
SELF LOVE