#this took approx 900 years to make

LIVE

brutal.

  • “  i think that i’ll die before i drink.  ”
  • “  i’m so caught up in the news of who likes me and who hates you.  ”
  • “  i’m so tired that I might quit my job, start a new life.  ”
  • “  they’d all be so disappointed  because who am I if not exploited?  ”
  • “  where’s my fuckin’ teenage dream?  ”
  • “  if someone tells me one more time “enjoy your youth,” I’m gonna cry.  ”
  • “  i’m anxious and nothing can help.  ”
  • “  i wish I’d done this before.  ”
  • “  i wish people liked me more.  ”
  • “  all I did was try my best.  ”
  • “  this the kind of thanks I get?  ”
  • “  they say these are the golden years.  ”
  • “  i wish I could disappear.  ”
  • “  god, it’s brutal out here.  ”
  • “  i feel like no one wants me.  ”
  • “  i only have two real friends.  ”
  • “  lately I’m a nervous wreck.  ”
  • “  i love people I don’t like.  ”
  • “  i hate every song I write.  ”
  • “  i’m not cool, and I’m not smart.  ”
  • “  i can’t even parallel park.  ”
  • “  got a broken ego, broken heart.  ”
  • “  i don’t even know where to start.  ”

traitor.

  • “  brown guilty eyes and little white lies.  ”
  • “  i played dumb but I always knew.  ”
  • “  i kept quiet so I could keep you.  ”
  • “  ain’t it funny how you ran to her the second that we called it quits?  ”
  • “  ain’t it funny how you said you were friends?  ”
  • “  it sure as hell don’t look like it.  ”
  • “  you betrayed me.  ”
  • “  i know that you’ll never feel sorry for the way I hurt.  ”
  • “  loved you at your worst but that didn’t matter.  ”
  • “  guess you didn’t cheat, but you’re still a traitor.  ”
  • “  there’s no damn way that you could fall in love with somebody that quickly.  ”
  • “  ain’t it funny, all the twisted games, all the questions you used to avoid?  ”
  • “  remember I brought her up and you told me I was paranoid?  ”
  • “  i wish that you had thought this through before I went and fell in love with you.  ”
  • “  you gave me your word but that didn’t matter.  ”

drivers  license. 

  • “  i got my driver’s license last week.  ”
  • “  just like we always talked about.  ”
  • “  today I drove through the suburbs crying ‘cause you weren’t around.  ”
  • “  you’re probably with that blonde girl.  ”
  • “  she’s so much older than me.  ” 
  • “  she’s everything I’m insecure about.  ”
  • “  how could I ever love someone else?   “
  • “  i know we weren’t perfect but I’ve never felt this way for no one.  ”
  • “  i just can’t imagine how you could be so okay now that I’m gone.  ”
  • “  guess you didn’t mean what you wrote in that song about me.  ”
  • “  all my friends are tired of hearing how much I miss you.  ”
  • “  I kinda feel sorry for them because they’ll never know you the way that I do.  ”
  • “  i still see your face in the white cars, front yards.  ”
  • “  can’t drive past the places we used to go to because I still fuckin’ love you.  ”

1  step  forward,  3  steps  back.

  • “  i called you on the phone today.  ”
  • “  all I did was speak normally.  ”
  • “  you got me fucked up in the head.  ”
  • “  like am I pretty? am I fun?  ”
  • “  i hate that I gave you power over that kind of stuff.  ”
  • “  it’s always one step forward and three steps back.  ”
  • “  i’m the love of your life until I make you mad.  ”
  • “  do you love me, want me, hate me? i don’t understand.  ”
  • “  maybe in some masochistic way I kind of find it all exciting.  ”
  • “  which lover will I get today?  ”
  • “  will you walk me to the door or send me home cryin’?  ”
  • “  it’s back and forth, did I say somethin’ wrong?  ”
  • “  it’s back and forth, goin’ over everything I said.  ”
  • “  i’d leave you, but the roller coaster’s all I’ve ever had.  ”

deja vu.

  • “  strawberry ice cream, one spoon for two?  ”
  • “  i bet she’s braggin’ to all her friends, sayin’ you’re so unique.  ”
  • “  so when you gonna tell her that we did that, too?  ”
  • “  that was our place, I found it first.  ”
  • “  i made the jokes you tell to her when she’s with you.  ”
  • “  do you get déjà vu when she’s with you?  ”
  • “  do you call her, almost say my name?  ”
  • “  i hate to think that I was just your type.  ”
  • “  don’t act like we didn’t do that shit too.  ”
  • “  play her piano, but she doesn’t know that I was the one who taught you Billy Joel.  ”

good  4  u.

  • “  well, good for you, I guess you moved on really easily.  ”
  • “  you found a new girl and it only took a couple weeks.  ”
  • “  remember when you said that you wanted to give me the world?  ”
  • “  good for you, I guess that you’ve been workin’ on yourself.  ” 
  • “  i guess that therapist I found for you, she really helped.  ”
  • “  now you can be a better man for your brand new girl.  ”
  • “  well, good for you, you look happy and healthy.  ”
  • “  not me, if you ever cared to ask.  ”
  • “  good for you, you’re doin’ great out there without me.  ”
  • “  i’ve lost my mind.  ”
  • “  i’ve spent the night cryin’ on the floor in my bathroom.  ”
  • “  it’s like we never even happened.  ”
  • “  what the fuck is up with that?  ”
  • “  good for you, it’s like you never even met me.  ”
  • “  remember when you swore to god i was the only person who ever got you?  ”
  • “  well, screw that and screw you.  ”
  • “  you will never have to hurt the way you know that I do.  ”
  • “  maybe I’m too emotional.  ”
  • “  your apathy’s like a wound in salt.  ”
  • “  maybe I’m too emotional  or maybe you never cared at all.  ”
  • “  like a damn sociopath.  ”

enough  for  you.

  • “  i wore makeup when we dated because I thought you’d like me more.  ”
  • “  i know that you loved before.  ”
  • “  tried so hard to be everything that you like.  ”
  • “  i read all of your self-help books so you’d think that I was smart.  ”
  • “  stupid, emotional, obsessive little me.  ”
  • “  i knew from the start this is exactly how you’d leave.  ”
  • “  you found someonе more exciting.  ”
  • “  you left me there cryin’, wonderin’ what I did wrong.  ”
  • “  you always say I’m never satisfied but I don’t think that’s true.  ”
  • “  all I ever wanted was to be enough for you.  ”
  • “  maybe I’m just not as interesting as the girls you had before.  ”
  • “  you couldn’t have cared less about someone who loved you more.  ”
  • “  i’d say you broke my heart but you broke much more than that.  ”
  • “  i don’t want your sympathy, i just want myself back.  ”
  • “  don’t you think i loved you too much to be used and discarded?  ”
  • “  don’t you think I loved you too much to think I deserve nothing?  ”
  • “  don’t tell me you’re sorry, feel sorry for yourself.  ”
  • “  someday i’ll be everything to somebody else.  ”
  • “  you’ll be the one crying.  ”

happier.

  • “  we broke up a month ago. ”
  • “  your friends are mine you know.  ”
  • “  you’ve moved on, found someone new.  ”
  • “  i thought my heart was detached from all the sunlight of our past.  ”
  • “  she’s so sweet, she’s so pretty.  ”
  • “  does she mean you forgot about me ?  ”
  • “  i hope you’re happy but not like how you were with me.  ”
  • “  i’m selfish i know. i can’t let you go.  ”
  • “  find someone great, but don’t find no one better.  ”
  • “  i hope you’re happy, but don’t be happier.  ”
  •  “  do you tell her she’s the most beautiful girl you’ve ever seen?  ”
  • “  an eternal love bullshit you know you’ll never mean.  ”
  • “  remember when i believe you meant it when you said it first to me?  ”
  • “  now i’m picking her apart like cutting her down will make you miss my wretched heart.  ”
  • “  she’s beautiful, she looks kind.  ”
  • “  she probably gives you butterflies.  ”
  • “  i wish you all the best, really.  ”
  • “  say you love her, just not like you loved me.  ”
  • “  think of me fondly when your hands are on her.  ”

jealousy  jealousy.

  • “  i kinda wanna throw my phone across the room.  ”
  • “  all i see are girls too good to be true.  ”
  • “  i know their beauty’s not my lack but it feels like that weight is on my back.  ”
  • “  comparison is killing me slowly.  ”
  • “  i think i think too much.  ”
  • “  i’m so sick of myself, i’d rather be anyone else.  ”
  • “  my jealousy started following me.  ”
  • “  i see everyone getting all the things i want.  ”
  • “  i’m happy for them, but then again, i’m not.  ”
  • “  i can’t stand it.  ” 
  • “  oh god i sound crazy.  ”
  • “  their win is not my loss, i know it’s true.  ”
  • “  i can’t help getting caught up in it all.  ”
  • “  all your friends are so cool.  ”
  • “  you go out every night.  ”
  • “  you’re living the life.  ”
  • “  i want to be you so bad, and i don’t even know you.  ”
  • “  all i see is what i should be.  ”

favourite  crime.

  • “  know that i love you so bad.  ”
  • “  i let you treat me like that.  ”
  • “  i was your willing accomplice.  ”
  • “  i watched as you fled the scene.  ”
  • “  doe-eyed as you buried me.  ”
  • “  the things i did just so i could call you mine.  ”
  • “  the things you did. well, i hope i was your favourite crime.  ”
  • “  you used me as an alibi.  ”
  • “  i crossed my heart and you crossed the line.  ”
  • “  i defended you to all my friends.  ”
  • “  every time i siren sounds, i wonder if you’re around.  ”
  • “  you know that i’d do it all again.  ”
  • “  it’s bittersweet to think about the damage that we’d do.  ”
  • “  i was going down but i was doing it with you.  ”
  • “  i say that i hate you with a smile on my face.  ”
  • “  look what we became.  ” 

hope  ur  ok.

  • “  his parents cared more about the bible than being good to their own child.  ”
  • “  wore long sleeves because of his dad.  ”
  • “  somehow we fell out of touch.  ”
  • “  hope he took his bad deal and made a royal flush.  ”
  • “  don’t know if i’ll see you again someday.  ”
  • “  i hope that you’re okay.  ”
  • “  her parents hated who she loved.  ”
  • “  she was brought into a world where family was merely blood.  ” 
  • “  with the courage to unlearn all of their hatred.  ”
  • “  we don’t talk much.  ”
  • “  i miss you and i hope that you’re okay.  ”
  • “  address the letter to the holes in my butterfly wings.  ”
  • “  nothing’s forever, nothing is as good as it seems.  ”
  • “  when the clouds are ironed our and the monsters creep into your house, every door is hard to close.  ”
  • “  i hope you know how proud i am.  ”
  • “  i hope that you’re happier today.  ”
  • “  i love you and i hope that you’re okay.  ”  
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