Safe, No Matter What.- Toga Himiko

Anonymous Request

Y/N is quirkless. After something happens, you finally reveal that your Junior High experience to Toga and that it was somewhat like hers except worse because you were quirkless so you got picked on for that as well, leading to you experiencing severe trauma. She comforts you and reminds you that you’re safe with her and she’ll do anything to keep you safe.

The day had been particularly hard on my shoulders. Hell, the week had, the past months had. I groaned while nearly slamming my head down on the counter of the bar. The sound of slight wisps came close. I peeked up to look at Kurogiri. I sighed and waved him off before setting my chin on my crossed arms.

“Okay.” He moved off. I looked around the room. There wasn’t many people here but enough here to fill the room with soft chatter. The door swung open to reveal a skipping Toga. I rolled my eyes and readjusted to place one arm under my head and the other tracing lines in the wood.

“You good for nothing hot-head.” I heard Shiggy yell as he and Dabi came in after Toga. I flinched slightly but mostly ignored it. They argued all the time so this was nothing new. It wasn’t until a glass was thrown and shattered against the counter next to me.

“Shit.” I yelped as I was hit with a few shards. I flinched when felt them cut and the blood start to run. I grasped onto the worse one on my arm, trying to hold myself together at the spark of memory. The two stormed off. Shiggy to his room while Dabi back out the door.

“Well that was eventful.” I heard Toga say in a chipper voice. “What?” I heard Kurogiri pull her aside. Everything felt like it was fighting its way to the surface as the pain increased in my arm. The anxiety, the pain, the emotional distress. The tears tried to push through. “Y/N!”

“What?” I snapped, pushing everything down. She came over cartwheeling before standing straight in front of me. She clasped her hands behind her back before swaying in place.

“What wrong?” The simple question sent a pang through my chest. I took a big breath before looking away.

“Nothing everything’s okay.” I said.

“No it’s not. Kurogiri said you were acting down and have been for the past couple of days. So I know somethings wrong. What is it?” She stared at me. I glared at Kurogiri before scoffing and getting up to leave the room. I speed walk to my room before slamming my door. I leant against it for a moment.

“Shit!” I yelled wiping the tears away. The blood on my arm caught my attention again. I groaned looking around for something to patch it up with. A knock on my door made me stop. I closed my eyes to gather myself before opening the door. Toga stood there holding up bandages, antiseptic, tools, and rags.

“I saw the blood on bar and the ground. I figured you need a little cleaning up.” She said in a soft voice. I nodded after a minute, relenting. She came in and sat on the floor next to the bed. I closed the door and sat in front of her. “Letting me see.” She made grabby hands.

“Fine.” I chuckled at her nature. I held out my arm and went bug eyed at the gash that was nearly the length of my forearm. I hadn’t looked at the actual wound itself. “Projectile glass.”

“Looks like it.” She said. She got the tweezers and started to take the glass out of my arm. My mind wandered to the past while she did that, bring my knees up to my chest.

I sniveled and gasped as I tried to get the glass out of my leg. I flinched every time I got close to the pieces. I threw my head back against the wall. I could still hear the other kids laughing, their words ringing in my ears.

“Quirkless.”

“Good for nothing but being the teacher’s pet.”

“Too bad their good student and person nature is overshadowed by the unfortunate reality of being quirkless. They would get so far in life if they just had a quirk.”

“Go away, we don’t want to be associated with a quirkless nobody.” I dug my fingernails into my palms, trying to shake their words from my head.

“How about we help you leave? Huh?” Rough hands shoved my shoulders hard. I stumbled back and hit the glass window. It gave way under the force of the hit. Luckily, we were only on the first floor. I cried as I tried to get up from the ground. I could hear the teachers yelling at my classmates and for me to stay put. I didn’t listen and got up and ran off with them yelling after me.

“Y/N?” I looked at Toga startled. She had a worried look on her face, something I don’t see very often. She reached up and went to cup my face but I flinched back. She paused but didn’t bring her hand down. ”What’s going on, baby?”

“It’s noth…” The glare she gave me made me stop and sigh. “Just a lot of flashbacks. Painful ones.”

“Flashbacks about what?” She asked. She moved all of the supplies since she seemed to finish while I was spaced out and moved up next to me.

“Middle school.” I said. I resituated and leant back against the bed. “Didn’t have a too good time back then.”

“What happened?” She asked, eyes focused on me.

“Well I was made fun of,…a lot, for being quirkless. Obviously, but…my classmates took it very far. It didn’t matter how much of a good student I was, a good person I was. They were terrible to me. I was nothing but kind to them and they threw it back at me just because I am quirkless.” I said while I felt her snuggle up to my side, placing her head on my shoulder. I glanced over at her and saw her lick a little of my blood off her fingers. “Really?”

“Feel honored.” She shoot back with an amused smile.

“Whatever. But they are the reason I turned out the way I have. One day at school, they were being harder they usual. Yelling at me that it would be best if I just disappeared, never came to school, those types of things. Well, one of my ‘classmates’ decided he would take a stab at helping me.” I took a big breath, setting my head back on the bed. A tear slipped out. “He pushed me so hard the window I hit broke behind me and I fell out.”

“What!?”

“We were on the first floor but it still hurt. It still caused scars. All kinds.” I said. Tears were running freely now. “My parents never did anything about the bullying. So that day that happened I ran away. I didn’t go home, I didn’t go to the police, I just ran. Stowed away on a train and came here. Shigaraki and Kurogiri took me in for some reason, never knew why. I’m not much help with no quirk.”

“You’re plenty help. You are amazing at fighting. Like really good. You’re really, really smart. Do you realize how many of the strategies we use are one’s you came up with? Hell, the plan on the USJ back before I was a part of the League was a good portion you. Shiggy even said so. You do some much for the league!”

“I guess…”

“No guessing.” She hopped up and perched herself in front of me. “You are amazing. Those idiots don’t know what they were talking about.” She reached up and actually cupped my cheek this time. She pulled me forward to peck my nose. I gasped and froze. “Come on.” She pulled me up.

“Wha…” She shushed me before hopping on my bed. She got herself into a comfy spot before reaching for me. She grabbed my hand and yanked me onto the bed. She pulled me to kneel between her legs. A blush came over me.

“Oh, stop it.” She giggled and pulled me down on top of her. She set my head on her chest and set one hand on my head and wrapped the other arm around my shoulders. She started to trail her fingers through my hair and give me light head scratches. I relaxed on top of her when it finally hit me she was just giving my comfort.

“Mmm.” I cuddled into her, wrapping my arms around her as much as I could. She settled back into my pillows and hummed. Once relaxed, the first sob escaped my throat. I felt her hold grow tighter.

“You’ve also just been having a hard time lately haven’t you?” I nodded, burying my face in her neck. “Go ahead, cry it out.” And I did. It wasn’t a full, blown out ugly cry but I cried. I basically cried myself to sleep.

When I woke up some time later, I was cuddled into a sleeping Toga’s side. I sighed in contentment and nuzzled into her neck before sitting up to see it was the middle of the night. I sighed before gently pulling her head into my lap. I carefully undid her buns, pulling out the pins and hairbands. I ran my fingers through her hair.

“Hmm-mmm.” She groaned and flipped over in my lap, wrapping her arms around my middle. I chuckled and ran my fingers through her hair. She nuzzled my stomach. She then pushed up on her hands and looked up at me.

“What?” She just smiled before leaning up and pressing her lips against mine. I gasped but fell into the kiss. I tentatively set my fingers on her cheek as her lips moved against mine. As she pulled back, she nipped my lip. My eyes fluttered as they opened. I looked at her in awe.

“You are enough, Y/N.” She reached up and cupped my cheek, running her thumb across the cheek bone. “You inspire me every day. I can’t imagine my life without you in it. Don’t be afraid to come to me if you need too. I’ll cuddle you, patch you up, or whatever else you need.”

“Thank you.” I whispered. She smiled and kissed me again. I hummed in delight. She couldn’t help but giggle and pull away. She wrapped her arms around my neck hugging me.

“I understand what you’re going through. I really do. In middle school is where everything went downhill for me too.” She pulled back. “Being put down for my quirk and how I acted with it for as long as I can remember, it hurts. When it came to middle school, I stopped letting them get to me.”

“And I am glad. I wouldn’t have you any other way, you crazy little vampire.” She laughed but calmed down when I yawned. She wiped the area under my eyes with her thumb.

“Come on, let’s go back to sleep.” I nodded in agreement. We laid down and she wrapped her arms around me. We got comfortable with the blankets pulled up to our chins. “Oh and if Shiggy or Dabi throws another glass in your direction, I will cut them. I promise I will keep you safe no matter what.”

“Works for me.” I laughed. She smiled wickedly before pecking my lips. It wasn’t hard to fall back asleep in her arms.