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This month we published two nonfiction pieces by Amber Schmidt, both with dark themes. “The Stag” told of a dream encounter between a ghost and a stag in the woods, while “My Release” detailed Amber’s struggle with self-harm. When Amber told me that she had also written songs along the same lines, I jumped at the chance to pair them with her pieces as a sort of soundtrack to what she had written. Below are three of her songs and lyrics: “If I Stayed,” “Mary, A Prayer,” and “Can’t Be Trusted.”
-Jen Lombardo, Non-Fiction Editor
If I Stayed:
https://soundcloud.com/modestjune/saturday-11-20-pm
If Satan was my partner and he wants to go dancing, would I be a fool to stand upon his shoes?
If Lucifer was a lover, loved me more than another, would it be alright if I stayed?
If I stayed..
Take me in your strong arms
Take me, I have no alarms,
Bars are always better after dark.
Lucifer walks with me, even when I disagree.
Tells me that he’s gonna do me harm.
If I stayed… If I prayed.
___
Mary, A Prayer:
https://soundcloud.com/modestjune/mary-a-prayer
Mary oh saint, I was told I should pray for a reason or savior or grace,
But it’s dark and it’s ugly and raw and unclean,
Oh the pain, but I swear it is sweet.
I could go from sunsets, from warmth all around,
To the pain that consumes and drags me to the ground.
And I pray for something to rest my weary soul,
And I wish God was real, I don’t wanna drink alone.
I’m mad, gone mad, too dark for this,
And I pick at my nails and I daydream of death,
Of driving towards water, cold black swallowed whole,
Or flames in my bed burning, burning me raw,
Of a ghost pulling teeth or of me all alone,
Or long haggard hands tearing flesh from my bones.
Mary oh saint, I was told I should pray for a reason or savior or grace,
But it’s dark and it’s ugly and raw and unclean,
Oh the pain, I swear it is sweet.
___
Can’t Be Trusted:
https://soundcloud.com/modestjune/trust
Careful what you say,
Can’t you hear the calm of February call you home?
It calls me home.
Careful what you say,
Don’t you know that I cannot be trusted?
Careful with who you play,
If tears could bloom, I’d plant them all in May.
If promises were cemeteries,
I would plant silver dollar at the place where I was from, and all alone,
Don’t you know that I’m not really here at all?
I’m not here, can you hear my call?
If promises were cemeteries.
If you’re like me and have an RP blog, you might have noticed several of your followers showing up in your activity with a 404 error under their URL and that you’re unable to go to their blog either on mobile or on desktop. So I did some hunting and discovered a new feature in settings that Tumblr just sprang on us once again.
I don’t know if this is an automatic feature or not but if you’re an RP blog, make sure this is turned off. Otherwise your followers cannot check your pages without asking you for links which is a hassle for everybody.
- mod manda
