#were officially done with any negativity here

My favorite part about anon hate is that I used to have so much self hate for myself, and felt like I was worthless and didn’t deserve to live. I kept a noose tied up and hidden among the tiles for months and really didn’t think I was worth it, didn’t think I was worth food, sleep, or someone else’s time for years. During those times I was so miserable and bitter seeing anyone else happy made me jealous. I secretly rooted for peoples downfalls and really just wanted someone to feel as low as I did…to ultimately want to be understood and not feel alone in it all.

When you find self love for yourself no one can come in and say anything to you to shake you or take that away. When you stop looking for validation from others and seek it for yourself amazing things happen. I woke up today and realized how many of my goals I’ve accomplished for myself and by myself and how much happier I truly am right now in life. I literally ran around my place in circles just happy and singing. I didn’t think I’d ever have days like this but I took the time to love myself and focus on my goals.

The opinions of strangers will never take that from me or dampen my day. It’s honestly just letting me know I’m doing something right if someone has the time to scroll through this blog and feel bitter resentment for seeing someone happy with their life and what I’m doing and then feel so bad they need to send a message. Honestly if that’s the highlight of someones day I’ll let them have it they need it more than I do.