a/n: not entirely sure what this is, and i might rewrite it later ;;akdjfhg;afkj anyways, hope you enjoy!
sakusa didn’t believe in love.
in high school, he would receive confessions every other day. a steady of stream of people baring gifts and cutesy notes claiming that they were in love with him. he’d politely decline, of course. because how can they love him when the didn’t even really knowhim?
once he entered the professional leagues, love was all his teammates would talk about. atsumu would babble about a recent date turned disaster, while hinata would fret about what gift he should give his partner for their 3 month-versary. bokuto would be in a haze, showing off pictures of his girlfriend he kept in his wallet to anyone willing to look. love sounded much too troublesome for him anyway.
curious, though, he would ask about his teammates about it. why bother going through all this trouble for love? why was love so important for them? what islove?
they would say it was just a feeling, that he would just know when he was in love, that it was enough to make someone so giddy that they would throw all logic out the window. sakusa was unconvinced, though.
yeah, right. sakusa was nothing if not a pillar of reason.
suddenly, you came crashing into his life, and the love he didn’t know he had to give came pouring out. from the moment he saw you, your warm eyes had melted the cold exterior he had fronted his entire life.
there was something about you that would render him a babbling mess, stumbling over his own words with a lack of grace no one else knew was possible.
even your touch was electrifying. from the first time he held your hand to the first time his lips grazed yours, it was enough for his brain to short circuit, forgetting about the entire world because in those moments, you were his world and nothing else mattered.
the boys would snicker as sakusa would talk about you nonstop in the locker room, badgering them on what he should wear or what kind of flowers you would like, but it was all in good fun, because for the first time in their lives, the saw sakusa in love- the very love he said he didn’t believe in.
the first time he said it, it caught you off guard. you scolding him in your god awful kermit the frog impression, and it just slipped out. Still, it didn’t make them any less true.
i love you.
from then on, those three words became a simple fact of your relationship. armed with those three words and you by his side, sakusa had found his forever.
but when you were at dinner one night, refusing to make eye contact with him,
when you were explaining how you couldn’t do this anymore, how being in a relationship was just too hard, how the distance was becoming too much–
when you were breaking the very heart you singlehandedly unfroze,
sakusa realized he very much did believe in love- you were living, breathing proof that love existed.
but the diamond ring in his pocket growing heavier by the second proved something else too:
