State of the foobs, don’t swipe right if you don’t want to see them Today I went to try

State of the foobs, don’t swipe right if you don’t want to see them Today I went to try and find a bra so I could wear SOMETHING besides the 2014 sports bras I’ve been living in the past two months. This made me realize my new normal. I’m not okay with my body. I’m grateful, I’m thankful my surgery and recovery is going so amazing - but I look in the mirror, try on a bra and realize how much I’ve lost. My foobs are so hard and separates - even the tightest bra doesn’t give me cleavage, half of my right foob is in my armpit which is uncomfortable and doesn’t fill out a bra since it doesn’t move (No, I’m not experiencing CC, just lots of much needed Alloderm after an 11cm, 6-10 lb malignant tumor was removed from that breast). I didn’t ask for this, any of this. I didn’t choose cancer. I’m lucky to have a perfectionist plastic surgeon who did an AMAZING job considering what he had to work with pre surgery wise, but these foobs … this is not me. I still want to hide in hoodies (clearly, and yes I wear the same one almost every day lately ‍♀️). I want to feel feminine, I want to have a bit of what I lost to cancer back. Today is a bad body image day. It’s hard trying to fight off ED thoughts when I literally look in the mirror and have no idea what I’m looking at, this doesn’t feel like my body. This isn’t being ungrateful - this is how I feel and I always keep my feelings real. I’ll have better days again but today it’s hard to be positive. I still love my body, for keeping me going,for all that it’s been through and continues to fight against #mastectomy #breastcancer #foobs #breastcancersurvivor #fightlikeagirl #mentalhealth #anxiety #depression #ednos #edwarrior #bopo #bosypositive #loveyourself #selflove
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