Alix kinda avoided me the next couple days. But then…he asked if he could talk to me. He apol

Alix kinda avoided me the next couple days. But then…he asked if he could talk to me. He apologized for being so distant—being vulnerable makes him really uneasy. He told me he’s haunted by nightmares, some of which he wasn’t ready to divulge, but he most often gets one in particular. The visuals in the dream are fuzzy, he said, but there’s always a bright colorful light, menacing people standing over him, and an indescribable pain in his right leg. And then when the pain gets to be unbearable, someone chops it off with a huge meat cleaver, and he wakes up. I asked if that’s what happened to his leg in real life, and he said he didn’t remember. There’s a lot of things he doesn’t remember well, he says a lot of his childhood is a blur. The night I woke him up, he said he left to go to R&R. Apparently it’s like a monthly mandated rest and relaxation retreat…he feels kinda spacey after he goes but it’s nice cuz the nightmares stop for a few days. He also said he drinks so much soda to avoid sleeping I told him I’m really grateful that he opened up and I’m here for him. And he said “I appreciate you.” I hope it’s not bad that I’m sharing this on tumblr lol but I just feel like I needed to confide in you guys and let you know what’s up. I hope I can help somehow…❤️

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