#7am and i havent slept yet

I feel like social justice expectations burned me out. I don’t think I’m the only one who feels like that so I don’t think it is just me being a whiner.

I’m not tired of the causes themselves, but I’m very tired of the highly performative way that it felt to try and out-justice other people. To use your labels as weapons to dismiss people. To bludgeon people for, ultimately, not that severe transgressions and use it to label them as negative going forward. Making other people a target and desperately hoping not to become a target yourself.

And the finger of blame always eventually turns back on itself so you’re dealing with legitimate and less legitimate accusations which is rarely a learning experience in the truest sense.

And it reached a point where I just had to care… Less. Because it’s not an infinite resource, especially when you burn it with such intensity.

Social justice is good, I’m just not certain that me and people similar to me have executed the pursuit of it in a healthy way.