#just ranting
And they were models
Hope everyone is doing okay
Having a boss who genuinely values your work and you as a person is worth so much
Had this thought on the way to work today after getting the second PTO request I put in DENIED, and then getting laughable barely part time hours for the second to last week through June.
A job should never be so awful it makes you cry on the way to clock in for your shift. A job should never make you feel like you’re useless, like nothing you do is ever good enough, like every effort you make is pointless.
Guys I am so goddamn burnout I’ve done a full swing back into a weird emotion halfway between anger spite and just done with bullshit.
Retail sucks. Job hunting, sucks. Putting in applications and not even getting an email for an interview, ESPECIALLY AT YOUR OWN PLACE OF WORK, sucks.
Im just so done.
Hit my 1 year mark for my retail experience yesterday. Only got 15 hours of vacation time instead of the 20 I was told I was going to get because they “hired me as a temporary associate first” and temp associates get nothing. Not even holiday pay. Worked my butt off for the first three months I was here, clocked as much overtime as I could at the time, and because of covid they gave everyone raises in January. I dont get a raise for my one year. All I got was a bag of candy and an iron on patch. And today I got the hours I’ll work for the first week of June. Was hoping for 30+ but once again its mid 20-ish range, even though I need more hours and they know I need more hours and May/June/July/August are supposed to be our busy months.
Pulled into work today and nearly just broke down crying. I don’t feel appreciated, let alone recognized for how hard I work. 20 hours a week isn’t enough to live off of, especially when rent takes up 80% of my paycheck.
I’m so goddamn burnt out. I am so, very goddamn burnt out.
ughh im super feminine afab but nb so idk how to navigate what i am! can i be t4t or am i not even t enough aaaaaaa
I honestly thought this nice puzzle/shipper would understand that what they are accusing another artist wasn’t tracing is just heavily referenced shipart. But no. They decided to degrade me for my opinion yet I showed proof and to make matters worst they sent their followers to attack me. The last time I try to be nice to these shippers. Yeah because I’m not full Japanese my opinion doesn’t matter.
I feel like social justice expectations burned me out. I don’t think I’m the only one who feels like that so I don’t think it is just me being a whiner.
I’m not tired of the causes themselves, but I’m very tired of the highly performative way that it felt to try and out-justice other people. To use your labels as weapons to dismiss people. To bludgeon people for, ultimately, not that severe transgressions and use it to label them as negative going forward. Making other people a target and desperately hoping not to become a target yourself.
And the finger of blame always eventually turns back on itself so you’re dealing with legitimate and less legitimate accusations which is rarely a learning experience in the truest sense.
And it reached a point where I just had to care… Less. Because it’s not an infinite resource, especially when you burn it with such intensity.
Social justice is good, I’m just not certain that me and people similar to me have executed the pursuit of it in a healthy way.
Just a quick question to anyone who will listen/read and might have experience in teaching teenagers/young adults - how do you stay motivated? I consider my lessons to be quite entertaining (easy when you’re working with movies really) and interactive, so why is it that some (not all of them, mind you) of those little shits just won’t listen or even pretend to care? It’s so tiring to deal with their disrespectful behavior :/ …but maybe it’s because I’m still new to all of this, 2 years isn’t an awful lot of time and I’m still learning. Also, I do care too much.
