#aaaaaaaaa
i am tired and sleeby but my stupid heart rate wont go down and it is so distracting :///
we are horizontal, relaxed and motionless and my heart is ready to fight for my life
do you ever just realize how john and sherlock’s story has endured a century and will endure for centuries more to come? that their love is as old as time and in every decade, in every adaptation, they will find each other and love each other until they take their last breaths and the cycle starts anew.
do you think about how when they see one another each First Time they meet, their souls say “yes, i know you. i’ve always known” and “i’ve missed you. i’m glad you’re here again.”
You just gotta admire Zerxus identifying a cleric of a betrayer god, coming to the conclusion that this man was used up because he was only needed to be a puppet briefly - which is entirely unprecedented and only able to be ascertained because of his EXTRAORDINARY knowledge and experience - and going “RIP to that guy but I’m different” and all but pledging himself to what is quite possibly the exact same betrayer god.
All because he’s got a chip on his shoulder about the city with regards to his husband, who was strongly implied to have been accidentally plane shifted by their mutual bestie, and that series of events has placed him in the exact headspace to extend to someone else a kindness he views as having been withheld from him. The bitterness of being spurned plus the kindness and the purpose of what it is to be a paladin. Not me, he says. I won’t turn away someone in need the way I and my husband were. This guy literally admitted to doing everything wrong with the world and I wholeheartedly believe he won’t do it to me. He gave me his word. My kindness is not given transactionally but today it has secured me this favor.
No wonder he hangs out with the mages so seamlessly.
