#actual cptsd

being afraid that someone’s only talking to you to use you, make fun of you behind your back, or blackmail you

always feeling usless and unwanted or needed

praying someone sees your bruises and marks and notices how you go to the nurse every day for icepacks and helps you. please take me away.

always feeling like you’re in danger

paralyzing anxiety through your entire body when anything bad happens. you seize. you can’t move. am i too scared or just unable?

anxiety making your body heavy and slow. fear making you speak slowly, quietly, and carefully.

talking quickly out of fear of being cut off before you can finish your sentence, even if who you’re talking to has never cut you off before

flinching. all the time.

im so lonely but if i get too close they will hurt me i can’t get close they’ll hurt me they will hurt me

everyone’s out to get me