#all of my yes
I’m still not yet over that “not a bad person” exchange between c!Wilbur and c!Ranboo, and the subsequent scene following it. And just, the absolute emotional power punch in Wilbur’s line delivery there.
You can tell Wilbur has been harboring these emotions so long, repressing them, struggling with them and genuinely suffering from keeping these negative feelings, these deep insecurities to himself for so long. They’re feelings that truly strike him to the core, that he struggles a lot with. Because the first time somebody says the slightest nice thing about him, tells him that he’s not a bad person, he completely shatters.
And there’s that aspect of poeticism in it too. Here’s c!Wilbur, somebody who spent so long viewing himself as a terrible, awful person, someone who was beyond redemption, and someone who could only do bad and negatively affect those around them. And someone who still thinks that everyone around him thinks the exact same. Here’s that same person being told, in very simple terms, “you’re not a bad person,” and because of it, stopping dead in his tracks, completely unsure of what to do. And he just breaks. c!Wilbur, someone who has put up a front to hide his feelings at all times, someone who has built walls around himself to protect himself from vulnerability, breaks.Overwhelmed by emotions, by hearing something he never thought he would hear, Wilbur just loses all composure and starts cryingmid-conversation, voice cracking, venting out his emotional insecurities and struggles that he’s held close to his chest for so long. Opening up, even if it’s just for a few minutes, even if he thinks he has to apologize for venting afterwards, and even if he rushes to hide his face and wipe the tears. It’s a small crack, quickly growing larger, in the wall he’s built around himself, and it’s cathartic.
Andthat line afterwards specifically, after Wilbur had decided to be emotionally honest for a little. That shaky, vulnerable little “I think I scare people.” The delivery there kills me. Wilbur is a character known for being very verbally sophisticated. He gives long, elegant speeches, well-thought out fancy monologues, and he makes sure every individual word he speaks is seen as charming or professional. Simply put, he has a way with words, that’s what he’s known for. And it’s an aspect of the front he puts up to hide his inner vulnerabilities, as well. He masks himself as a confident, charming person, refusing to show any emotional vulnerability for fear of being hurt. He’s done it since his presidency.
But here? After being brought to tears, after stumbling through some of his words, he opens his mouth and tries to speak for a few seconds, but nothing comes out. And finally, this “silver-tongued” man can only muster out an extremely simple, plain, admittance of his insecurity, his insecurity of how he feels the world views him as a ticking time-bomb as opposed to a person, how he feels like others only dislike him and are driven away from him, and how, in his ever present remnants of self-loathing, he fears that it may be due to himself. With a tilted head, and shaky voice, sounding like he’s going to burst back into tears at any moment, “I think I scare people.”
It really is an emotional scene.
YES! YEEEEES! ALL OF MY YES!