#and i turn 20 on thursday and she wont be here for that

my aunt is going to pass away today because we’re pulling the plug and I’m taking it so hard. she was only 8 years older than me so she was more like my older sister. she was my best friend growing up and I can’t believe this happened. she had her baby son on the 15th and she’s been having complications ever since. she quit breathing and her heart stopped and she’s been in a coma these last few days. it took a turn for the worst last night and I knew this was coming but I wasn’t prepared for this emotional pain. she was so self less and kind and why do all the good people have to go first. her son will have to grow up without her and she won’t get to see me follow my dreams or get married. it’s such a sad day and I hate feeling so fucking helpless. sorry for the rant but I just want you guys to know why I’ve been absent and will continue to be for a little while.