#art career angst

A little bit of angsting and worrying about my art beneath the cut

Soon it’ll be time to apply for universities again, and I don’t know what to do. When I grew up I always thought I was going to be an artist, but now I’m not so sure anymore. As soon as drawing becomes a chore I loose all motivation and creativity, and I don’t know if it’s just lack of discipline or if it’s always going to be like this. I’ve always drawn the most when I’m not supposed to, like in math classes and such. I’ve applied to a few art school but I’ve never gotten in. It’s so much competition and I just feel like I’m not good enough. 

And because of this, I have no idea what to do now. If I’m not gonna be an artist, what else? I need to make a choice and it’s just… scary. I’m thinking of trying out some other creative jobs, like cooking or flower arranging, but I’m afraid that if I don’t try to make a career in art now I’m just gonna regret it later in life.
I’m also worried because if I don’t choose an career in art, what am I going to do with these skills I've acquired? Am I just going to become an adult and not have time for drawing anything again? Is becoming an uneducated part time freelancer an option while I do something else?  

Has anyone else felt like this? Being lost after high school because an art career doesn’t sound appealing anymore?