#badhabits

Vacuuming out the car in 30 degrees because tweaker habits stayed with me. Lolol My ex used to obsess about his truck and house being uber clean and it was awesome coz If I cleaned regularly I had less of an urge to look for dropped shards.

We had so much fun together^.^ go to the car wash one day and it’s like hot as fuck outside, like think upper 90s and we’re spun tf out and Fri king Cheladas, got kid rock blasting so loud on his truck speakers that another guy cleaning his car comes over and starts dancing and my ex like sprays me with the water so I’m like fuck it I got a swimsuit on so I take my shirt off and we just start all dancing in the rain, I’m up in the back of his truck just so happy.. Can’t remember the last time I’ve been happy Like that..

I try to stay positive, be happy but it’s very difficult. Without him or speed, I’m lost and sad, no longer confident or fun.