#blackftm
I faded away from this blog. I’m still Kickin. Today is my 1 year on testosterone. I didn’t document much. I wanted my transition to fade into my existence, not become my existence. I’m still the same nigga with the right hormones.
9 mos vs. 7 mos vs. 6 mos vs. 2 mos
I really haven’t documented much of my transition or paid much attention to where I have come from which is why I have abandoned this blog. I had went through depression and lots of anxiety. I am coming out of most of it, much of it was depression of being trans instead of born cis-male. Some find pride in the transition, I’ve found reminders and missed opportunity. I’m better off transitioning, but it took a mental hit for me. I’m to the point I want to be medically transitioned completely and never look back. I know some identify as trans while that depresses me. I hear more of a man and see more of the man, I knew was here all along. I have always passed to an extent, and use to talk way less because my voice could give me away, now I have a voice, a deepened still squeaky voice. My beard is now capable of being full, but I have to shave for work (hints my stubble). I’m trying to find peace with my journey, but I only want the end goal.
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