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tagged by @renecdote my beloved

Buck had been so wrapped up in the search, looking for his forever-after in people who only loved him in parts, that he hadn’t noticed Eddie quietly settling into all the spaces in his heart, and filling him with the golden happiness he’d always longed for. 

For so long he hadn’t seen it for what it was, but he’d sat on his balcony with Maddie that day and explained exactly what he thought love should be, and it had occurred to him that maybe he’d been looking for something he’d already found. The thought left him breathless.

And right on its heels came the realization that none of it could ever really be his. Because Eddie came home from Texas looking lighter than he has for a long time, and he’s talking to Frank, and he’s smiling so easily, and—

And Buck has been living with dark clouds hanging over his head for as long as he can remember. He figures he’s gotten used to it, the way they trail after him and threaten to break open and drown him with every blow he takes from the universe. The thunder feels as much a part of him as anything these days. But he doesn’t want to drag Eddie into his storm, no matter how much he may long for company in the rain. Eddie deserves better than that, better than him. 

Buck wants (and wants, and wants), but he can’t. He just—can’t. Because all he’s ever done is ruin his relationships and drive people away, and he can’t bear the thought of watching Eddie leave him behind. But even more, he can’t bear the thought of him staying.

Buck doesn’t really think Eddie would have him, anyway.

So he’d held that aching love he’d discovered close to his chest, felt its flickering warmth and the spark of hope that came with it, and then tucked it away. Another piece of himself to hide from the world.

i’ll tag @herodiaz@tripleaxeldiaz@tawaifeddiediaz @adamsparirshand@rewritetheending if u wanna share!

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inspired by a collection of books, poems, films and songs, these prompts are for romantic dynamics (although maybe some can be platonic!) and most surround the idea of a character confessing their feelings for another character! i hope you enjoy!

  • “ nothing about any moment i’ve ever spent with you will ever be a regret. ”
  • “ i protect my investments. ”
  • “ you have a place in my heart no one else could ever have. ”
  • “ i miss you. ”
  • “ it’s not the same without you. ”
  • “ if i know what love is, it’s because of you. ”
  • “ you must know… surely you must know it was all for you. ”
  • “ it’s you. it has always been, and always will be, you. ”
  • “ i found you without looking, and love you without trying. ”
  • “ don’t ever think i fell for you, or fell over you. i didn’t fall in love. i rose in it. ”
  • “ i’m yours. ”
  • “ i wish that we could be like that. ”
  • “ i have, for the first time, found what i can truly love. i have found you. ”
  • “ if i believe in anything, it’s you. ”
  • “ we make a pretty good team, don’t you think? ”
  • “ i am who i am because of you. ”
  • “ i will always be yours. ”
  • “ i’d rather argue with you, than laugh with anyone else. ”
  • “ you can stay… i’d like you to stay. ”
  • “ of course i don’t hate you. that’s the problem. ”
  • “ and i just want to run to you. and i hope you know that every time i don’t, i almost do. ”
  • “ we’ve had the best of times together. haven’t we? ”
  • “ i’ll find you. okay? i promise you, whatever happens, i’ll find you, and we’ll be together, and everything will be good again. ”
  • “ i thought i could lose everything and be totally fine with it. but then you came along. and now i see how wrong i was. ”
  • “ i could never forget you. ”
  • “ we don’t have to stay here. we could go anywhere we wanted. ”
  • “ i like to be alone. but i’d rather be alone with you. ”
  • “ i wish you were here. ”
  • “ break my heart. break it a thousand times, if you like. it’s always been yours to break, anyway. ”
  • “ i’ve tried to forget you. i’ve never tried so hard in my life. but it’s impossible. it’s simply not possible for me to stop thinking about you. ”
  • “ i love you. i’ve been doing my best not to, but i do. i love you. ”
  • “ every day i spend with you is the best day of my life. ”
  • “ i like myself a lot more when i’m with you. ”
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