#circadian rhythm
Inktober - Pattern
Life becomes shockingly bearable once you stop fighting your body and listening to its natural rhythms and patterns.
I was diagnosed with delayed sleep phase syndrome at 18. I didn’t know what to do with the label then, and it meant little to my medical team. We live in a world the upholds the 9 to 5 as the norm; anything outside of that is strange and a show of poor character. I’d already been through the process of drugging myself into resting and propping myself up with stimulants since age 8, so that just continued with highly mixed success.
However, I was forced off of the medication dictating an artificial sleep schedule earlier this year. Trying to uphold an early start time was destroying me. I was delirious from lack of sleep, my mental health was an active danger to me, the side effects of the medication were harming my body, and I was functioning, as a whole, worse and worse before 4pm.
While a bedtime of 8am initially made me feel guilty, the difference it’s made in my wellbeing is astounding. People really do need to sleep, and not everybody can sleep at the same times. Myself included! I’ve since embraced being nocturnal, and I now enjoy working late at night while the rest of the world is quiet.
It’s nice to finally not punish myself for needing something.
one of the most enlightening realizations ive had was finding out that non-24 hour circadian rhythm people were a pretty large group and most of us have oddly similar cycles of usually around 28hr internal “days” and this masquerades as “insomnia” but if allowed to sleep and wake naturally we will just advance forward through time an extra 2-4 hours a day at a relatively stable pace. we can’t go to school or jobs or even run errands on normal schedules without massive pharmacological and behavioral intervention. most of the people who have been diagnosed or figured it out themselves will report horrific, life-ruining disruption in their professional lives and terrible health from accrued lack of sleep. this disorder is most common in vision-impaired people which seems to suggest it’s related to light cues. anyway just thinking about this as extremely loud yard work woke me up at 8am for the second day in a row
lot of people reblogging this identifying themselves in it so i wanted to give you a link to a more detailed desription of Non-24-Hour Sleep-Wake Disorder, and mention theres a similar disorder called Delayed Sleep Phase disorder where you are on a regular 24 hour cycle but you naturally get sleepy around 3-4am every day and wake up around 10am-12pm (roughly). as far as i can tell, despite the widespread nature of both these disorders, its basically impossible to get diagnosed bvecause sleep medicine is probably the single most useless specialty and if you dont have sleep apnea they dont want to hear about it.
I"m fascinated by the implication that our internal biological circadian clock is 28 hours.. is is possible that in the earth’s rotation/orbit used to be longer or slower???