#corpse headcanons

Corpse Husband x Reader (Female) ft. Corpse’s ex’s POVE (Fem OC)

Warnings: Breakup, Post-breakup angst, Melancholy, Swearing

Genre: SongFic, Angst, Hurt/No Comfort, RPF (Real Person Fic)

Summary: Corpse’s ex’s view on his relationship with his new girlfriend Y/N shown through the lyrics of Olivia Rodrigo’s ‘Happier’

Requested by Anon. Hi dear! Thank you so much for your request! I’m so sorry you haven’t been able to receive it earlier but here it finally is and I hope it makes the wait worth it! Love, Vy ❤

We broke up a month ago
Your friends are mine, you know, I know
You’ve moved on, found someone new
One more girl who brings out the better in you

Sykkuno has been apologizing profusely ever since the slip-up a few days ago. Bless his heart, he’s got nothing to apologize for. After all, Corpse and I made it seem like we broke up due to mutual interests and that it was all entirely amicable and neither of us had any sort of problem with the other. And, in all honesty, that’s more or less the truth.

There are no hard feelings between us, there weren’t any even during the period of the break-up, before or after it. None. It was all so simple and yet hurt so much. Because, and let me be 100% bare with you here, no matter how mutual or friendly-termed it was, the scale was definitely tipped.

Tipped in a way that made me swallow my pride and my own personal stance just so Corpse could be happy because he clearly wasn’t finding that happiness with me anymore whereas I was still hopelessly in love with him and could see a future with him. Hearing him lay out the problems he’s been having with our relationship and how he doesn’t wish to fix them was the biggest betrayal I’ve ever had to face. Mostly cause he didn’t do it in a mean or selfish way like I wish he did. I wish he had taken on a different persona so I wasn’t still looking and listening to the person I’ve been so in love with all this time. Just so I wouldn’t feel like my heart got ripped out of my chest by someone I trusted to hold it gentle but rather a complete stranger who I wouldn’t want to be with either.

I wanted him to be someone I could hate in those moments, but he wasn’t. Just like the girl he’s with now - I want her to be the boyfriend thief one would imagine in some cheesy early 2000′s rom-com. I want her to be the mean-spirited, high-strung princess I’d envision when close my eyes and conjure up a list of people I hate in my head.

But neither her nor Corpse make it on that list.

And I thought my heart was detached
From all the sunlight of our past
But she’s so sweet, she’s so pretty
Does she mean you forgot about me?

Neither of them can possibly be there. Not when I still love him and will continue to do so for some period of time. Not when she’s this sweet, kind human being that’s a literal ball of sunshine and brings light into any setting she finds herself in. I’ll go as far as to say I’d love to meet her even. In another world, maybe I’d be calling her my sister because of how great of a friendship we’d make.

I came across a stream where she was invited yesterday. The streamer gang and her work so well together even if they too were apprehensive towards her in the beginning. She grew on them immediately and won them over with how genuine she is in all her pure-heartedness and kindness.

And she clearly makes Corpse so damn happy.

I haven’t heard him laugh like that in what feels like forever now. It makes me feel horrible to think I didn’t notice that before. That he wasn’t laughing from the heart anymore. That he wasn’t the happy person I was in a relationship with the first year of our relationship.

I’m glad he’s found someone who’s re-sparked that joy in him, but I can’t help but feel like that spark is burning so bright that it’ll burn me out of his memory. It’ll erase me from his heart…or maybe it already has.

Oh, I hope you’re happy
But not like how you were with me
I’m selfish, I know, I can’t let you go
So find someone great, but don’t find no one better
I hope you’re happy, but don’t be happier

When I think back to that aforementioned first year of our relationship just to compare it to the one he currently has with her - which I hate doing but is stronger than me - I can’t help but remember similar images. Laughter, smiles, inside jokes, tickle fights, doing each other’s eyeliner, cooking at odd hours of the night, making paper airplanes from old magazines I’d randomly buy, playing multiplayer games together no matter how bad I was at them.

I remember when he’d read horror stories to me to lull me to sleep.

I remember when I’d hold him in my arms to calm him down when he’d be having a panic or anxiety attack.

I still feel his hand on my thigh even when I sit alone in my car and think back to the many late night trips to fast food drive thrus where although I was the one to order he’d still feel nervous and hold me so tenderly for his comfort as well as to show me his constant affection. Affection that overtime faded slowly before finally disappearing.

Affection I’m sure and I hope he’s now giving her - Y/N is her name. But I still hope they don’t do any of the things we did when we were together. I hope those moments will remain there as a reminder of me and won’t be overlayed by the same memory made with her.

And do you tell her she’s the most beautiful girl you’ve ever seen?
An eternal love bullshit you know you’ll never mean
Remember when I believed you meant it when you said it first to me?

He’s probably exercised many of the same lines he did on me on her. Complimenting her beauty, her smarts, her talents, gaming skills, whatever. I can’t blame him or nitpick that when I don’t know the girl. Maybe she genuinely deserves all the compliments. But that doesn’t mean that they won’t sound fake to my ears now that I feel like he never meant them when he said them to me.

If he had meant them, would he have let us fall apart so easily?

And now I’m pickin’ her apart
Like cuttin’ her down will make you miss my wretched heart
But she’s beautiful, she looks kind
She probably gives you butterflies

Last night, a terrible one, I happened to stumble across Y/N’s YouTube channel. Turns out she too is a content creator, albeit a smaller one. She does seem to have a dedicated and loyal fanbase though. She does makeup and gaming streams, some of which I partially sat through just so I can do some self-reflection and comparison in the most unhealthy possible way. But then that derailed into something even more toxic - it had me turning into a horrible person.

‘That’s why he probably thinks she’s beautiful - all that makeup’

‘Her laugh is so loud and high-pitched, it’s probably fake‘

‘No wonder her fans are so loyal, she’s dressed so provocatively she’s practically got them hypnotized into donating‘

‘Her humor’s so dull‘

‘She’s so fake‘

‘Just watch that subscriber count grow. If that’s not why she’s with him then I don’t know why. They’re polar fucking opposites‘

I hate the girl who thought of all that bullshit at a particularly low moment last night. I just couldn’t believe how much I wasn’t able to dig deep and find anything substantial to hold against this sweetheart girl. She took all that makeup off and was still beautiful, model-like so. Her laugh is melodious and childishly innocent. She has a great fashion sense, her outfits are the perfect mix of classy and outlandish. She made me genuinely crack up more than a few times, barreling me into laughter even, which isn’t always easy, mind you. She’s genuine, I was the first to admit that, I don’t know where that thought came from but it went directly against all I believe it’s fucking ridiculous. She hasn’t once mentioned Corpse in her streams and even mentioned on that stream with the gang that she wants their professional lives to stay as detached as possible.

Maybe there I have my answer right in front of me. She’s this person that gives him butterflies and I’m that bitter person I never realized I’d become. I have no right to villainize them for their happiness, not when I love that for them.

But hate it all the same.

I hope you’re happy
But not like how you were with me
I’m selfish, I know, I can’t let you go
So find someone great but don’t find no one better
I hope you’re happy
I wish you all the best, really
Say you love her, baby, just not like you loved me
And think of me fondly when your hands are on her
I hope you’re happy, but don’t be happier

I hope he’ll think of me every now and then and remember that girl he loved. I hope he’ll hold onto at least a small part of me as I will of him. I hope he loves her truly, because that girl doesn’t deserve to get bamboozled by him or anyone else that might enter her life, she’s too wonderful for that.

I hope they are happy, but I hope our relationship remains as fond of a memory for him as it does for me, regardless of what it turned into towards the end of its duration. It was my first time being in love, and it was my first time falling apart this bad.

I owe Corpse many romantic firsts but I’ll always hate him for being my first official heartbreak.

And I’ll hate Y/N for being the first ‘new girl’ I actually care about.

I hate them for being exactly what I want them to be - happy, happier.

But, at the end of the day, I don’t hate them. I simply miss when him and were them.I hope he sometimes misses it too. Is that too much to ask?

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