killing eve spoilers because i am physically ill (also dexter spoilers if you haven’t seen it)
this killing eve ending has me gutted. like i am absolutely distraught… why is it nearly impossible for subversive gay relationships to get a moment of happiness without one of them dying? i do enjoy watching stuff like love, simon and seeing these average (though bland) gay characters get their happy endings, but damn that is not the only kind of representation we want to see, nor should it be the only representation to exist. villanelle was such an amazing character, one of my favorites in recent TV, and to see her get killed like that was so disappointing and distressing. honestly, i kinda saw it coming, since 1. tv shows that have a lot of characters die tend to kill off the more important characters near the end, and 2. the line of work that villanelle and eve found themselves in was a high-stakes game with people dying left and right, with everyone always walking around with a target on their backs. so in the back of my mind i had the feeling she would die… but god i really didn’t want it to happen. ugh this is like dexter all over again for me. i was SO fucked up over debra’s death. even when i rewatched the whole series a few months ago, and i knew that she was gonna die, just seeing the final episode again had me sobbing in my room. and the fact that debra and villanelle die in such similar ways! they were both shot, and they both fell into water and slipped away to the bottom of the ocean. GOD i just hate that Bury Your Gays struck again. they didn’t even have to have them end up together, like i was fine with only getting a villaneve kiss, because that’s more than some of us get (speaking as a faith/buffy stan). it would have been better if neither of them died. hell, it might’ve been better if they both died, because that would have made a little more sense. but to have one die and not the other, and now eve has to go on and live her life (god, you could say that villanelle’s death metaphorically killed eve) and live with the weight of not only every single thing she’s been through since she met villanelle, but also the realization that it was all for nothing. it’s just exhausting. and really surprising considering how strong the show started out. i really thought they were going to do something different than following a gross trope, since KE originally set itself up as progressive when it came to its queer characters. ugh. i’m just sad now. cannot believe the supercorp ending was better than this. and i didn’t even watch supergirl, i just watched the last two episodes when they aired. that was a letdown, but THIS was absolutely unacceptable.
