I’ve been needing my paints for a while now. To all my friends online, I’ll be back after a bit. For now, my socializing will be cut short. Unless I message you ofcourse LOL. I just need some alone time.❤️

It’s been years.

Naruto was the anime that marked my childhood.

Bleach marked my teens.

I can’t deny how invested I was at one point. Speculating like crazy because of the interactions, chemistry and overall bond that Ichigo and Rukia shared.

For years I watched their relationship be depicted closer. The way Tite would draw their eyes fixated on one another with so much emotion. Always in each other’s immediate mind. Always drawn together in spreads and promotional covers.

For years, I thought I was blessed to watch their constant evolution as their relationship grew larger and more intricate. I thought, that they for sure would end up together. Because no friendship with that level of love for one another ends in just a simple “friendship” At a certain point, their interactions stopped being overly silly and comedic and the serious, emotional dial was cranked up to 100.

But obviously it didn’t end that way.

Seriously, no hate towards Orihime. I think the character is very sweet. Same with Renji. But, looking back, their characters were always the ones with the unrequited love.

There was a point in the story in wich Renji let go of his feelings and moved on and same with Orihime. I don’t remember with every exact detail when but I do remember I sensed the shift.

After that, I don’t remember any important interaction between Renji and Rukia or Ichigo and Orijime that would make me think those feelings where still there. Or that they where even reciprocated.

Onwards from there, the road had seemed cleared for IchiRuki and that’s why the ending of Bleach hit me so hard in the brain.

It felt so…. off.

There’s no years worth of content. No countless interactions filled with trust and support. No several looks filled with warmth and longing. No teasing, gentle smiles or overwhelming emotions between the couples who ended up being Canon, atleast in my opinion.

Not when you compare between them and Ichigo and Rukia.

I remember from time to time, the scene where they both think they will never see each other again. That Ichigo would no longer be able to percieve her at all. How much pain, longing and just… love was contained in their eyes. When she started to fade and jerked her head upwards to meet his eyes in such a way…. It’s like she wanted to reach out to him, say something but couldn’t. Because she is ultimately bound by Tite’s limits.

I wonder now…. if that’s when he changed his mind, for whatever reason that I, to this day can’t seem to sense from the rest of the story.

I wonder if that was his way of saying goodbye. I wonder if that was his way to close that possibility off in an emotional and respectful manner.

Bleach is getting its final arc animated and it’s supposed to come out later this year. I’m not… sure if I want to watch it.

Thing is, if Tite really meant that scene as his own private goodbye, then maybe he shouldn’t have kept pairing them up afterwards in the very same way as before.

Even to this day, promotional materials and special illustrations are still depicting them together. Even knowing the outcome.

Some people may think not watching a show because your ship didint end up Canon is immature and that why the heck would I care so much about characters being together in a Shonen.

But Bleach is different. Because A LOT of its plot, subject and story rides on Ichigo’s and Rukia’s relationship. It’s not a side story thing and it’s not a background filler. It’s very much ingrained in the main storyline. Over and over again.

That’s why the ending feels so unfaithful. Offbeat.

I chose not to regard it too much. Rather, I prefer to reminisce on the slowly building bond between them. Because that’s not erased by the ending.

I guess, I will forever be sour on the fact they work so good together and that for me, it’s just a bummer that they can never officially give fruit to years of blooming relationship and chemistry.

Truly an example of something just “meant to be” but will never get to.

Right now, for my life, I prefer to focus on things that can be.

Over a year ago, I bought you out of impulse but also because I wanted to give you a better life than being cooped in a tank with several other hamster bigger than you.

I did my best to give you the best life I could. I hope it was enough.

I love you Ernie. Rest in peace.

dragonfoxgirl:

For the people who followed me during my She-ra boom of EntrapDak related content last year, you might recall these two:

I am pleased to say that after a year’s worth of time playing with different scenarios and story bits in my head, I finally decided to get back in to writing, using these two this time.

Ima, a Vulpina woman has spent the last 8 months regaining her old life before Prime’s invasion. One afternoon while inspecting the borders of her territory, she stumbles upon a Horde clone, unconscious and still in his uniform. By fate and her own will, she bonds her life with his by nursing him back to health and teaching him how to be his own person.

A solitary wild woman scarred by her past. Untrusting and closed off.

A feral Horde Clone having to come to terms with his past actions and uncertain future.

This is a story of how they met, how they fought to understand each other and how they will end up depending on one another to a nearly unhealthy level.

When wild feral beings fall in love, it’s pure instinct and unfiltered, raw emotion.

There’s 4 Chapters ready for your enjoyment. If you’re interested in seeing their story unfold, follow the link:

Orange is a Warm Color.