#evan buckley
One of the things that strikes me the most about Eddie’s dream sequence is Christopher’s disinterest. Not even just the “you’re always dying” line
(and again, holy fuck, the layers to that)but the way he scarcely even looks at him at all. Of equal fascination is the way that Eddie does everything to keep his son’s attention on him: he pretends to be a waiter, he gets cream cheese on his nose, he ruffles his hair… There’s such an air of overcompensation there (a recurring theme [?] in this back half of the season: food + overcompensation as a diversionary tactic for avoidance of internal distress and discomfort etc etc) but the only time Christopher actually looksat Eddie long enough to study him is when he’s “dying.”What does this say about Eddie’s subconscious, about Eddie’s fears? I mean, yes, yes, there is trauma there, obviously, but more specifically, what does this dream say about his relationship with his son? What layers of fear linger there? The dream sequence has all the hallmarks of normalcy (even calling back to Stuck in 2x04 with the bowl of cereal and even 5x11 with Eddie and Chris having breakfast), but it turns sinister so quickly. Not even because of the nature of Eddie’s traumas, but because of the insane out-of-character behavior from his own son.
IMO it all comes back to this (heinous and absurd) idea that Christopher would be better off if Eddie was dead. He continues eating his cereal like his dad’s not bleeding out/drowning in front of him; Christopher’s world doesn’t stop just because Eddie isn’t in it anymore, and that…. that is the thing that terrifies him. In a dream of terror and trauma, the idea of his son simply not caring if he wasn’t around more is one of the key things that rattles Eddie to his very core. Christopher saved him. Christopher is the reason Eddie is even alive and Christopher saves him every day just by existing. So the idea that he wouldn’t even be fazed to see him dead…. no wonder the idea haunts his dreams.
#Eddie gave Buck his son. What a fucking honor. It would be an honor under ‘normal’ circumstances. Any parent bequeathing their child#to a trusted friend in the event of their death is the highest honor anyone could ever give anyone. But framed by the narrative of this#dream and that one of Eddie’s biggest fears is his impermanence (as a concept; not even as a flesh-and-blood being) in his own son’s life#the implications of Eddie handing Christopher to Buck just quadrupled.#Christopher is Eddie’s savior. He’s the fucking breath in his lungs. He’s the reason Eddie gets up in the morning and the reason he has #persevered this long on this earth. He is everything to him. Christopher is Eddie’s anchor to life as he knows it#and he lives with an all-encompassing fear that - despite Christopher being more than enough to sustain and keep him alive - he is#not enough for Christopher. So him handing Buck his son… essentially positing Buck as his own replacement when the well of the fear#of his own impermanence is deep enough to crop up in a trauma nightmare… That is insane.#And what does it say about Eddie’s own perceptions of their family unit? What does that say about him choosing Buck and essentially#saying 'please replace me’ in the ONE area he is petrified of being replaced in.#I’m… #This is…#*head in hands*(@evandiaz)
Jack. Jack what the fuck. What the fuck is this meta and these tags?????
I had a lot of THOUGHTS™ (all of which have probably already been stated in smarter, more eloquent ways by others) on last night’s episode of the wee woo show but am too lazy to type them all again so please enjoy some dumb screenshots
The costuming parallels are too much for me tonight.
Binging 911 is like watching a faster paced greys anatomy with even more disasters but firefighters and i love it.
After tonight and next week’s episode we’re gonna need so much therapy, both buddie and us
The fact that Buck was so shocked to react when Eddie was shot is killing me, I love it because I expect the netx episode to begin with everyone screaming and running around in contrast with Buck just staring in silence in the middle of the chaos before losing it -and he will and it’ll be epic, just like “Eddie Begins” but 200% worse
Eddie, sweetie, you can try to hide behind your son and the team how much you want, but it’s pretty clear that you missed him and you’re angry because Buck didn’t think about you and your inability to reach out to him during the lawsuit. You’re a clown, admit it.
I’ve seen so many episodes of 9-1-1 that a couple of weeks ago I had an emergency during my shift (I work in a nursing home) and my first instinct was to call 911 instead of my country’s emergency number and then I almost expected the 118 team come out of the ambulance.
