“‘What have they done to me, Fitz? Gods, what have they done to you, to mark you so? What has become of me, that I did not know you though I carried you in my arms?’ His cool fingers moved tentatively down my face, tracing the scar and the broken nose. He leaned down suddenly to rest his brow against mine. ‘When I recall how beautiful you were,’ he whispered brokenly, and then fell silent. The warm drip of his tears against my face felt scalding.”
Every so often I see posts saying things like “Molly was the most important relationship in Fitz’s life” “Beloved was the most important relationship in Fitz’s life”
NO. WRONG. YOU’RE WRONG.
Fitz was taught “a horse cannot wear two saddles” and that was WRONG. and he spent his life tearing himself apart over which calling was the real one - the Wit or the Skill, the wolf or the prince, Badgerlock or Farseer, assassin or scribe, straight or queer, Molly or the Fool - because he cannot accept for most of the books that all those things are equally part of him. the man who taught him that, Burrich, tore his own life apart by being unable to accept that he loved both Chivalry and Patience and they both loved him and each other.
The Fool, Molly and Nighteyes all call him out on this consistently. he’s cutting off parts of himself and then they come back suddenly and hard and break things because it’s not honest. he doesn’t love Molly and the Fool in totally different ways or at different times or one more than the other. He loves both of them in every way that matters, they are boththe love of his life, you don’t have to pick which prevails bc as long as he’s having to choose parts of himself to deny he’s continuing to make terrible self-destructive decisions.
