#hormonal birth control
Meds haven’t been working right ever since I started back on birth control. I didn’t even finish the whole pack and I still feel fucked up.
I’m pissed I wasn’t given the pill I requested. It’s the one I’d been taking for almost 5 years, and the one I know doesn’t mess me up, but because it increases my risk of stroke (thanks again Zoloft for the weight gain!), I was given Lutera. Lutera has levonorgestrel, which is the same hormone that’s in Mirena. So it’s no wonder I’m fucked up again.
Besides destroying what little progress I’d made with my mental health, it also caused me to gain the weight I’d lost, and it made me break out even worse. It also gave me heart palpitations that still keep coming back. Mirena did the same thing.
Just give me the fucking pill I ask for next time.
I started the pill 3 days ago and I’ve been depressed and anxious as fuck all of those 3 days.
Normally when my period starts, the depression and weird moods end. They don’t usually get worse.
When it first happened on day 1, I thought there’s no way it could be the pill. I just started it.
Then today I woke up feeling fine and thinking the depression had finally passed.
But then I took the pill and I’m back to feeling like I wanna goddamn die.
I know birth control can mess with Lamictal, and I’m taking less Lamictal than I used to, but I’m so fucking done with my meds needing to be fucked around with. I was feeling good on my meds just the way they were, then I started the pill and now I’m falling apart.
The worst part is I have 3 months supply from Nurx and my parents paid for it because I have no health insurance, and it’s not like they’ll give me a refund, so just stopping is a fucking waste of money. Cancelling will cost me money too.
I just want my tubes tied. I got the pill now mainly just to make my skin go back to normal but I’m so fucking sick of it all.
Christ this was supposed to treat my PMDD.
And don’t tell me I need to “just stick it out for a while”. I was fucking suicidal yesterday. I’m not sticking with that.