#i feel like im gonna regret this

Bought a strap on butterfly vibe a few days ago and I finally used it tonight, and while the vibrations get pretty strong and get my soaking wet, it’s not enough to get me to edge at all! It’s like a torture device!

I have twenty minutes before I have to leave my house and I’m sitting here, my underwear is soaked and I have my bullet vine pressed against my clit.

I really want to cum! It’s been so long since I had a full orgasm, but at the same time I don’t want to lose this feeling of being desperate.

I have to keep reminding myself that good girls don’t cum, but sometimes I don’t wanna be a good girl and I’m running out of punishments, because I’m starting to enjoy them too, I get so wet when I punish myself.

What’s a girl to do?

I’ve stuffed dripping cunt and tight arse with a double ended dildo and applied anbesol to my throbbing clit, gotta go off to work soon but I’m feeling really horny. It’s been almost 14 months since my last orgasm, I am desperate! Everything I’m near I want to grind against, I’m edging every chance I get and I watch porn of women getting the orgasms I so desperately desire. I think maybe before I leave I’ll beat my pussy as hard as I can with my hard bristled brush for being such a filthy whore. Fuck I’m so wet! If anyone wants to comment on this post and add to the punishments feel free, I can’t use my inbox at the moment, it’s not letting me read my messages.

So I had some fun the other day with the 2 suggestions I got to punish my clit for being so desperate and wanting an orgasm, but now I’m thinking of trying something new and pushing my boundaries a little, I’ve read on other blogs about how intense edging is with a full bladder and wanna put my bathroom trips in someone else’s hands.

I’m on my way to bed now, (I’m working nights this week) my nipples are sore, my clit is swollen and my pussy is filled with a dildo, so I’m all set for pleasant dreams.

Does anyone wanna tell me how long to hold myself for? I’m not sure if I’m ready to beg for permission to go just yet, (I’m not sure I’m even gonna like it at all) but I guess it’ll be fun to try.

I was think maybe alloted times to use the bathroom and a set amount of edges to do during, maybe even having to skip a bathroom break if I don’t finish the edges in time… I guess I’m in tumblrs hands now.

So on the 27th December it had been 1 whole year without cumming, and while I had planned on rewarding myself with an orgasm, I decided to go for a bit longer.

But, now it’s been 13 months and I’m a mess! All I can think about is having an orgasm, it’s always on my mind, and I find my hand drifting to my aching pussy more often.

So, I have decided that I need to be punished for being a bad girl!

I need my clit to hurt for being so fucking needy all the time, but everything I do just arouses me more, it seems my punishments are more “funishments”.

I’m going to bed now, but was hoping that maybe some of you guys could maybe tell me how to punish myself…

Also a little visual for you guys, I’m going to bed with a dildo stuffed in my pussy and my arse cheeks are red raw and it hurts to sit down.

Being made to go to a family bbq today, and all I wanna do is stay home and play with my desperate, needy cunt and tight little arsehole, while I imagine I’m being suffocated by a domme’s pussy

Not sure how much longer I can stay in denial for, I haven’t cum since December 2017.

I’ve already spent the last 2 hours watching porn and edging, then I spanked my cunt hard with the hard bristle side of a hairbrush, 100 HARD strikes, until I was shaking from the pain.

But… My punishments seem to be turning into funishments, as soon as they’re completed I wanna go straight back to rubbing my clit and filling my arsehole because I’m so turned on.

Does anyone have some punishments I could try out and see which ones are good for me?

I’m gonna be around a lot of people today and my minds gonna be tuned in on my clit, is it so bad that just the thought of them knowing what a denial slut I am turns me on?

So if anyone has any ideas, feel free to comment on this post, I’ll be checking throughout the day and I’m not apposed to the thought of being caught.

**Tasks** If anyone would like to add a task or up the numbers please feel free to fuck me up, I need to be desperate and dripping all the time, it’s how good girls are suppose to be after all. 1000 spanks/paddle x10 Sleep with a dildo in my dripping pussy 150 **HARD** pussy smacks x50 Toothpaste on clit x50 Toothpaste on asshole x50 Clamp nipples for 20 minutes x50 Grinding masturbation **ONLY** 48hrs **Ruin** orgasms 50 **NO** touch 100 days Write 10 darkest fantasies and post on blog x10 Masturbate to porn I **HATE** and edge twice **NO** panties for 7 days 100 **HARD** breast smacks 20 to each breast 120 clit snaps (10 at a time) x10 Wear crotch rope for 20 hours x10 Stretch my ass with a plug (nipple play only) 100 edges x10 Deep throat dildo after it’s been in dripping pussy 1000 dildo fucks **NO CUMMING** (250 each) 10x Pegs on nipples 50 Nipple snaps (5 to each) 30x Toothpaste on clit (anal only) 10x **NO** touch, naked, legs spread, watch porn 30mins

I’ve been debating on whether to make this blog or not, but I finally realized that dumb sluts like me shouldn’t think and just do as they’re told. I enjoyed having orgasms but I enjoy being constantly denied and dripping, desperate for a release that may never come. But I need people to control my release -because sometimes I just cant control myself - someone who will keep me on edge like a good girl and who’ll punish me like I deserve for taking so long to realize I’m a mindless whore. I’ve been edging everyday for a week, I’m dripping and swollen and so fucking desperate! However many likes this get is how many more times I’ll edge and reblogs will be how many times I snap my clit with an elastic band.