#i have to remember how to tag again now

… Aand, apparently, that’s where both Serena and the author stopped thinking!

I started writing something for the @berena-tbc , but… Well. It’s me. I’d be disorganised and late for my own funeral.

I’ve been away from Tumblr for a while. I had a bit of a breakdown. Real life became a Bit More Shit, and I realised I wasn’t just empathising and sympathising with a fictional character, I was becoming the worst aspects of her, to everyone’s detriment. So, I had to take a step back.

I still wrote snippets and notes and occasionally the weirdest one-shots would spew out of me, but often, I couldn’t read Berena fic without throwing the phone, wailing, railing at canon. I avoided it a lot, even though not a day went by where I didn’t think about “what would Bernie/ Serena do/ be doing/ oh! I bet Berena would be…”

But! I’m better… Am getting better! And the last few months I’ve been devouring fic like air. I’m still a bit useless at commenting, and for that, I’m sorry - I appreciate all you fic writers and manippers who have kept me going even when I couldn’t get out of bed and yes, had to recover my phone from under the bed where it’s landed in a rage at canon, and all the things that could have been, that we could have had!

So! Here I am, for what it’s worth! I have things I pledge to finish, ideas that will take me years to work through, and works that I love to revisit and look forward to more from the writers and artists. You’re all amazing.

Berena was the best thing to have happened to me, not least because of the amazing friendships I have made. It’s part of my soul, I reckon, and I’ll never be over this ship. So, I’m back here, because I have so, so missed just logging on on a random Tuesday with something like “I wonder who makes the best curry and who do you reckon is most likely to be into BDSM?” and having a legit honest and hilarious conversation to follow! I have so missed being a part of this fandom, it was the best, and I’d love to get back to that!

Special thanks to @ktlsyrtis@asfarascruithne@bonnissance for… Well. Everything. ❤️