summary: after tobias hankel, reader can see their boyfriend struggling and reminds him that love means supporting him through the harshest of winters. request?:no pairing: spencer reid x gn!reader category:angst with hopeful ending content warnings: mentions of tobias hankel incident, discussions of addiction (spencer), discussions of suicidal ideation (spencer) word count:2.3k a/n: hi friends, so here’s the next fic in the reid from the vault collection. this one is deeply personal to me and covers a lot of serious topics. please remember to take care of yourself always and take breaks when you need. also, a huge thank you to my lovely lovely betas @reidsbookclub&@lcvingprentjss for helping me with this and making it so much better, as always this fic wouldn’t have gotten anywhere without them. i love my friends, and i only feel a little bad for making them scream about this fic ❤
When you’d arrived at the hospital in Georgia just hours after getting that haunting call, Penelope had hugged you and promised they’d all be there for him. JJ had apologized for ever letting him get hurt—to which you repeatedly assured her it was no one’s fault but the bastard who’d taken your boyfriend. Derek Morgan had sat with you in that tiny waiting room while Spencer slept off dying. He nudged your arm and cracked a joke whenever you got too lost in your thoughts, in the visuals of what could have possibly happened to the man you loved. When you worked up the courage to ask Emily Prentiss what happened to him, she sighed and told you that Spencer wouldn’t want you to carry that pain with you—you knew she was right, but that didn’t make it sting any less. Even Hotch, once he could finally step away from all the paperwork that comes with being the Unit Chief in an incident like this, promised you that he would do anything it took to make sure you and Spencer were okay.
Your boyfriend was in good hands, that was what you’d learned that night. So when he stopped cuddling you as often, and when he began avoiding date nights out of the apartment, you weren’t as worried as you might’ve been before. It was easy to tell yourself that this was a normal part of Spencer’s recovery, that if he was really struggling he had the team to lean on. You told yourself he didn’t need you for this.
This painting is already pretty old - it was the result of a short summer school about plankton ecology on a northern german island a couple of years ago. How time flies! About a year ago I (reluctantly) set my foot on Swiss grounds to start my masters at ETH in Zürich. Today I am leaving again, for some months at least - but before its time for new beginnings I want to cherish how much joy and warmth this past year has brought me! One of the many great experiences was certainly ArtSci (https://artsci.ethz.ch/), the first ETH art and science exhibition my friends and I organised this spring. Hans Thierstein was until 2009 full professor of Micropaleontology at ETH and has since then embarked on new creative adventures. Feel free to check out more of his work here - https://www.hansthierstein.ch/! Hans was definitely one of the most involved participants in ArtSci this year, displaying his self-built quatroscope and a series of quatroscopies along with it. Apart from allowing us to display his very interesting artworks, he also actively helped making ArtSci happen whenever our logistics failed - he was just great!! The upper photo was made by him, it is a quatroscopy of my drawing from back at 2016. For me, this is a really nice illustration of how other people help us grow - I am so grateful for all the people that I have met here and elsewhere and for everything they have brought into my life.
Just wanted to give a heads up as to why I’ve not been active on here as much lately. I’ve been hospitalized due to what they are thinking is a viral infection attacking my heart. I also don’t have a charger for my cell and won’t until sometime tomorrow. Thanks for understanding please feel free to flood my inbox so once I can get back on I’ll have msgs to make me smile. ^^
Don’t worry I’m still going to start making gifs again for those who care (esp fuckyeahjgv although I make other gifs as well) so if you have any recommendations pls send them in to my asks here bc tbh the inbox at fuckyeahjgv is a cluster fuck of chaos. Thanks~ I need suggestions so pls send them in. I’ll also need names , links to vids, etc. ^^
For now just.. take this all in:
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TL;DR. : I’m in the hospital, it’s my heart, and apologies for not being active but that’s why. Need gif suggestions sent to this inbox for anything you’d like giffed. (Jgv, kpop, etc) thanks~ ^^
Hey there followers. You may have noticed I haven’t been posting as much. I’m still out here and doing well but a lot of things have come up at work and I just haven’t had as much time for the blog. Unfortunately it looks like that’s the way its going to be for a couple of months. Expect to see me back sometime early next year. See you then!
I’m going to take a break from Tumblr now for a while, I’m not sure how long I’ll be gone for but I really need this break because I am not in a good place mentally right now. Recently Tumblr has been making my mental health even worse, theres been some negativity and drama which I really don’t like and I don’t feel like part of a community anymore, I feel like I’m on my own on this site and I don’t fit in and that makes me sad
To my mutuals only: if anybody would like to keep contact while I’m gone, message me and I’ll give you my other social media contacts!
I might log in every once in a while just to check up on people and perhaps answer some messages, im not sure yet~
I don’t know when I’ll come back but I’m sure I will! I love you all and I’ll miss you all
Hey peeps! This chick is taking a short break from Tumblr until her life is back to normal! I’ll check in from time to time so be on your best behavior! Mouth Monday will resume as soon as these hurricanes go away and when my eyes uncross from staring at Excel spreadsheets all day! Please be kind to one another and feel free to keep tagging me with all the bunnies, polka dots, and flowers your heart desires! I’ll be back!
