#im gonna go make me some tea and try to get something done
my mental health feels like that one roller coaster that used to be at seaworld in san antonio and it didn’t have any like, trick, it was just a bunch of humps over and over again? it was called the screamin’ eel or something like that, i don’t quite remember. it had one huge drop from like thirty stories or something and then the rest was a bit boring to a coaster fiend like me. where are the loops, the twists, the spirals?
well, actually, my brain coaster has spirals too so maybe i should end this metaphor.
it’s slowly easing back into the season of drear and rain, and with it comes a new sense of urgency to finish my outside projects before i am physically unable to do manual labour. i can’t remember if i’ve mentioned it, but despite loving cold weather, i have some kind of issue where my hands and feet go numb after only a few minutes if it’s below 70F or so, making it very painful to do work in the cooler months and especially in the winter. most gloves or thick socks do not help. heated gloves are a bit better, but they are cumbersome and i am the kind of person who really relies on tactile sensation when working with my hands.
anyway. it’s something i’ve just accepted, but it also means that i have to try and get all my outside projects done in summer before i am quite literally unable to make any meaningful progress on them. combine them with my workaholic nature and well.
i’m burnt out.
i’m not going into it too deeply because the circumstances the boil down to said burnout are for my therapist to know, not my tumblr blog, but it’s affecting me pretty badly lately. i am very tired and frustrated and it’s making it hard to do much of anything, much less farm chores. but they need to get done so i will, but it’s like pulling teeth. good thing i’m more stubborn than a mule.
on the animal front we’re doing well. i’ve got plenty of baby bunnies with more on the way in the next couple of days, and i made a little road trip to pick up a new rex buck that i am very excited out. and yes, i did remember to tell his breeder to give me some transition food. i am done dealing with force feeding rabbits and out of nowhere deaths.
he is a handsome wideband amber who carries e (either tort or harlequin) and he will make some lovely babies with my tri girls :)
on the bird front, everyone is well. my partner is almost done building the second movable coop, and there’s only (checks list) three more left to make (maybe. burnout may change that.) the girls have started slowing down on the eggs and both my fridge and my time management are thankful. i was hoping i’d have a lot more opportunity to sell eggs this year but unfortunately it didn’t quite work out that way, and so far i haven’t had a ton of luck trying to sell chicks. or any of the ducklings we have running around still. i’m not sure if i want to raise them up for meat, though, since most of them are muscovies who are NOTORIOUSLY slow growers, so i’m kind of at a loss for what to do.
at least the turkeys are well. the older royal palm is starting to get real feathers now, and the narragansett, blue slate, and chocolate are nearly old enough to leave the brooder as well. i am excited to see them grow and turn into actual turkey-shaped things instead of vaguely hunched over chickens. i have no real opinion of turkeys yet, since i have not experienced them in their adult forms, but so far i do like them. they are cute, and despite the fact that a bag of rocks generates more electricity than their brains do, they are delightfully easy to brood after my duckling fiascos.
well it’s about to rain and i don’t want to have to walk around the pasture and get wet, so i guess i’ll go. here’s to hoping september is a little better than august.
