#it’s blurry as fuck sob
and again i am abandoned
poem transcript under the cut.
[poem transcript:“If only I had swallowed my hurt
let the razor-sharp edges cut my throat,
let the dark red wine wash the sins away.
Maybe then I wouldn’t be in this corner
begging God for an answer
screaming my throat raw.
Instead I wore it as a medal
shiny and loud for everyone to see.
Unwilling to die quietly,
I held a parade in place of a funeral.
I am the entire procession
and Lucifer the only witness.
What would they think
if they saw me now?
Would they tiptoe around me,
afraid of detonating the bomb
of my being,
or would they avoid me altogether
and laugh as the trumpets blare?
If only I had swallowed my hurt
maybe then they wouldn’t have left.” [/end transcript]